Wednesday, February 27, 2008

WHAT HURTS

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thinking of that person every waking and sleeping moment knowing all the while that he never even thinks a single thought of you...
>>>> kinda hurts me. yep. is he thinking about me? or not? maybe he isn't. and maybe..that's the beauty of love... loving someone who doesn't love you back..yet..you still love him...

holding back only to find out when it's too late, you both felt the same way, but were only scared to lose each other so much that you didn't let the feelings out
>>>> i just don't know if it is hell right to say it.. i really don't know...

falling in love with someone you didn't mean to fall in love with
>>>> yeah. didn't mean it. wrong time..wrong place..wrong channels... maybe all is wrong :cry:

finding the perfect one...with only one prob...that person doesn't love you...
>>>> same as above...loving someone who doesn't love you back...

lying in bed each night, thinking of that special person you can never have...
>>>> sigh.

why are there nights like this?


Sunday, February 24, 2008


Can't beat the shit it me.
I MISS YOU.
DAMN.


Saturday, February 23, 2008

???

kasalanan ko ba
kung hinahanap hanap ka
sa bawat pagmulat ng mata?
at sa pagpikit
pangalan mo pa din
ang tanging sambit?

kasalanan ko ba
na malunod ako
sa atensyon na handog mo?
ang tanging nais ko lang naman
ay karamay
sa aking mga hinaing at hinagpis
at makakasalo sa mga kiliti ng buhay.

kasalanan ko bang mangulila sa iyo
kung di ka masumpungan sa bawat sandali?

Friday, February 22, 2008

SLOW ME DOWN LORD

I can't remember where and when and how i got this prayer... but after reading it..it felt like stress and pressure have been flushed out of my system...

SLOW ME DOWN LORD

Slow me down, Lord!
Ease the pounding of my heart
By the quieting of my mind.
Steady my hurried pace
With a vision of the eternal reach of time.

Give me,
Amidst the confusions of my day,
The calmness of the everlasting hills.
Break the tensions of my nerves and muscles
With the soothing music
Of the singing streams
That live in my memory.

Help me to know
The magical restoring power of sleep,
Teach me the art
Of taking minute vacations
Of slowing down
To look at a flower;
To chat with an old friend
Or make a new one;
To pat a stray dog;
To watch a spider build a web;
To smile at a child;
Or to read a few lines from a good book.

Remind me each day of the fable of the hare and tortoise that i may know
That the race is not always to the swift;
That there is more to life
Than just increasing its speed.

Let me look upward
Into the branches of the towering oak
And know that it grew great and strong
Because it grew slowly and well.
from a tiny acorn

Slow me down, Lord,
And inspire me to send my roots deep
Into the soil of life's enduring values
That I may grow more surely toward the stars
Of my greater destiny.

Wilferd A. Peterson

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

SPLURGE

SPLURGE

Yesterday was bliss.

Hahahaha. Second Sunday it had been, WS mode back home (WS = walang silbi).

I was again stroked in front of my PC. Nine am til three. :D Sunday for me will always be a perfect time for adik mode, after twelve hours a day, six straight days of hard work. Really makes perfect sense. haha

********

Met ate kimi and mami sultry 5pm at the Starbucks (ATC) While i was on queue for an order of venti vanilla frap, i happen to hear the barista explaining to the girl in front of me that the promo for the starbucks planner has been extended till March. The girl was so elated i could see her brimming with excitement as she handed her redemption card to the barista. I just remembered my own redemption card with no more than 12 slots to be filled up, which i already threw in my waste can after Ady
refuses to take it with him and fill it up for me. (I knew then that i won't be able to complete it
come end of the promo period)

Since my order of vanilla frap entitled me to one sticker, i decided to just give it to the girl in front of me upon peeking that she still has a lot to fill :D I already have the planner (Thanks again Ady) and just the simple act of filling at least a slot in her redemption card would surely magnify something in me. And it felt good, seeing her flashing her a big smile as she thanked me. Really good. I could still hear her on the next table mumbling to her friends how a stranger filled in a slot in her card. :D

**********

And guess what really made up my week?

A dinner with Ate Kimi, Mami Sultry, Eliwood and Badeth.

Originally planned at Skyline Vivere, i've to cancel my reservation because we couldn't afford to experience the dining al fresco without our friends who wouldn't be able to join us. So we just settled to fill in our stomachs at Poquito Mas (Westgate Alabang) since we all crave for Sisig days before our settled date came in.

We splurged on pork sisig (the best at poquito mas), gambas al ajillo and pork adobo. The meals we had are indeed sumptuous, "galit-galit muna habang kumakain."

Dessert we had at Cafe Breton (Charged to Ate Kimi , Thanks..mwahhh!) The crepes are real damn so delicious. Oohh la la :D



We have agreed to splurge again either in Zong or Hula-hula (also in Westgate) after a payroll period :D I could just imagine how we all would be come December :)) Nyahahaha.

Forget about diet. There's life with them. I love them all.

Saturday, February 16, 2008

BETTER LATE THAN NONE

After 24 cups of coffee (12 Christmas blend + 12 usual flavors), you will get this 2008 Starbucks Planner. You can collect the stickers until January 15, 2008. For each redeemed planner, Starbucks will make a donation to Project Sparkhope, a joint program with UNICEF Philippines providing early learning facilities for pre-school children in remote barangays all over the Philippines.

The Starbucks 2008 Planner is technically free. That is, it becomes free after you’ve consumed 25 drinks and attached the corresponding stickers to the card. If you’re a regular coffee drinker, then 25 drinks is about a month’s worth of your usual coffee intake, so it’s no biggie. But if you’re not a Starbucks fan and you’re just in it for the planner, then 25 drinks might just be a little too much. This being the holidays and all, why not get in touch with long lost friends and relatives? Gather up the gang for a Starbucks coffee date and after they’ve placed their orders, casually whip out your card. Before you know it, that planner will be in your hands before you can say coffee-rush.

The Starbucks planner has refillable pages with its six ring snap binding. Long after 2008 is over, you can still use and reuse it, if not as a planner then as a notebook because the leather cover looks like it can withstand even a nuclear blast. The pages are also easy to turn, no sticky pages whatsoever.

The Starbucks planner has a soft, pliant leather cover embossed with leaf-like designs. It also has a green striped band around it in lieu of a fastener.
(from kikay exchange.com)


**********

Yeah. I got one already.

The Starbucks Planner

Better late than none di ba :D

This planner came from Ady who asked me to help him in the floor plan lay-out of his soon-to-open computer shop.

THANKS ADY!

Thursday, February 14, 2008

FEB 9 AND FEB 10

FEB 9

Weekned had never been this wonderful. Ahihihihi.

Saturday night. Chill with the symb adiks.

We had a sumptuous dinner. Mine's binalot sa dahon: tapa with kamatis and half of salted egg (courtesy of tatang) Ahhh... sarap.

After feeding our growling stomach, a traipse inside the mall had kept our digestive system in full gears. As always, bonding wouldn't be complete without a caffeine boost as we exchange stories and engage in quick banters.


*******


Tatang sandra finally got his much coveted PSP. Ah..such a nice feeling when we finally got something we have been dying to have. Wahahaha. It's as if the rest of the world is in focus. Whoah. Papiktyur muna ako sa bagong fi-esh-fi.

(I just hope this PSP wouldn't tread the path
his 3230 had undergone...... gone in the pocket of a tipsy senior citizen slouching in a bus on his way home ... (Big Evil Grin.)


************

SUNDAY.

Woke up late. My sister had told me the night before that the PC is down ..again. I cancelled my Autocad turotial to wen's brother in order for me to resuscitate the PC and bring it back to life. :D I am directly proportional to my PC, when my PC is down, i am down too. :D

Minor adjustments on the cable at the back of the pc had my Windows running. (haleluyah..angels singing on the background) Yehooooo. Back on adik time again.

I must have enjoyed chatting with a friend, i almost forgot breakfast and lunch ever existed. Even my stomach neither complained. :D I almost loose track of time as i lie on my bed rambling about senseless things and keeping an ear to what he was saying..and..uhhmmnn...singing :lol: But i did had a great time :D


************

We had set up a surprise birthday dinner party for our friend Mayeth. Ady accompanied her to the mall to buy her a gift..while we all clandestinely assembled to the place where we will dine :D

And the modus operandi headed by Doc Joy and clubT's very super generous bestfriend Ady was indeed a success.

The plan went very well.

We watched her in so much surprise as tears start to brim in the corner of her eyes.

Eventhough the service at the Old Spaghetti house got into our nerves, we really did enjoy the celebration we had. Taking also in full consideration how Ady paid the meal in his Visa. (wehehehe. Talamats Ady)

It was a strong sensation of deja vu as if our years together had suddenly come back.

To Iyen and Sherley, we hope you could join us in our next modus operandi: birthday bash for Ady. Sure enough..it will be hell fun of excitements...and naughtiness too..bwahahahha....a

Saturday, February 9, 2008

NO TRESSPASSING






I was in a roller coaster of emotions yesterday. Not because i was having my monthly period as what rodney had been insisting (hahhahaha) but because ... ala lang...basta naiinis ako...

Went offline in the morning. I was so busy with my pending jobs that i needed to shut my virtual world in order for me to accomplish my schedule. Been so damn busy at work. Physically straining and mentally damaging. haha. I almost smelled like metal billets, forging steels, lubricants, graphites and others of that ilk. Goodness. ANG HIRAP TALAGA KUMITA NG PERA.

I was in a meeting when a good friend dropped me a line. Hmmmnn.. Really feels good to be remembered, isn't it? Especially by someone who is just about to doze off. Baka kasi di na sya magising bukas, then i'll be the last person to whom he/she have talked to.That would be history. Come to think of it. (hahaha...joke lang :D peace)

***********

Do not invest too much emotions. So that when the truth comes, you'll be able to pull yourself back easily.

Whatta thought.

I told you not to.

I told yah.

Thursday, February 7, 2008

HAPPY ME

I'M SO HAPPY :)

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

A while ago, ysm was sending messages on my YM. In as much as i would want to shut the hell out of him on the back burners of my brain, i decided to be casual and answered his queries in the modest way i could.

Not much of a conversation really, just plain question and answer. He was also hitting his keyboard with the usual kamusta-ka-na-mis-na-kita-mahal-na-mahal-kita-ingat-ka-lagi spiel, run-of-the-mill statements i consider so gibberish. Also, being at work wouldn't allow me to have a longer exchange of words with him. Even if i had the luxury of chatting time, i'd rather spend it in the symbianize shoutbox (kapag wala ang mga frendships sa ym. hahaha.)

A slip of the tongue maybe, I have mentioned to him this Ryan who has sent a message on my friendster asking about his whereabouts.
I told him to check the message, see if this Ryan's a real acquaintance. Because at the back of my mind, i was thinking this could be a bogus one, could be someone just pretendin to double check if we are still in contact, and someone just wantin to peek through my friendster profile..checking who looks better ...hahaha. When he realized that the person indeed is his friend, he wondered how this person could have sent me a message. Crap. Of course he could have probably saw my pic in his profile! Wa-da-hel.

So i told him, "Why not just go tell Ryan i am not your girlfriend anymore. Crap."

Kerstinne25 signed off.

Monday, February 4, 2008



I arrived early for my Saturday AutoCAD class. Instead of surfing the net inside the multimedia room, i chose to amble inside the colegio in order to bail me out of madslaps from the symbianize shoutbox. (:peace:)



http://www.letran-calamba.edu.ph/

**nostalgia mode**


I stared at the field and chapel as i stand in the lobby which we tagged as "Evita Stage" back then. The seductive beauty of the Mt. Makiling behind the chapel had a soothing effect on my nerves..the sky was the color of robin's eggs, and the air held the briskness of spring nor the heat and humidity of the summer. As always, this sight will always enthrall me and bring forth all memories as the thousand shades of green graced the surroundings.

But amidst the wild beauty of the landscape, i can still remember vividly the stalemate between the students and the administration as my gaze is caught by the orchestrated randomness in the people that i have come across with here.


*******

My mind suddenly drifted to the prisms of sunlight cutting patterns on the ground. It's a lovely Saturday afternoon! Instead of rambling thoughts inside my head, i decided to offer a prayer and headed to the chapel that i was staring at for a couple of minutes.


***********

As i passed by the ME laboratory adjacent to the elementary and highschool building,
i had mental notes of the memories we shared in our Mechanical Engineering class. Oh how i missed the engineers. The area had been spruced up, as compared to what we had back then. Air conditioned room, walking shed straight to the chapel, repainted walls, and other inside improvements which i cannot peek through as the room is closed on a saturday.


The heat is rising from the grounds in shimmering waves. I was a bit perspiring as i reached the St. Albert the Great chapel.





Silence.


Prayers.


My soul is connected to Him.



I offered Him gratefulness. Thank you for all the blessings. Thank you for my family. Thank you for my friends. Thank you for my job. Thank you for my life.

I asked for His forgiveness.

I asked him to bless me with the gift of healing.

Please nourish my body and soul.

******

God... grant me the serenity, to accept the things I can not change...
courage, to change the things that I can...
and wisdom, to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
enjoying one moment at a time;
accepting hardships as the pathway to peace.

Taking, as HE did,
this sinful world as it is...
not as I would have it.

Trusting that HE will make all things right
if I surrender to his will.

That I may be reasonably happy in this life,
and supremely happy with HIM,
FOREVER,
in the next.

Amen.

*************

After some minutes of contemplation,
i wandered back to the lobby where i had the nostalgic ball rolling.

WISTFUL THINKING

oh how i want our eyes to meet and linger a bit longer

oh how i want to squeeze your hand
as though i wanted to hold on to it forever.

oh how i want you near me.

oh how i
wish.

if only.

Sunday, February 3, 2008

SNICKERS

GADGETS I OWN

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HEHHE...19 KOPONG KOPONG PA TONG IBANG GAMIT KO...PERO TAGO KO PA DIN KSE MAY SENTIMENTAL VALUE :D

SONY HANDYCAM DCR-HC21E (gift from my tatay) (sori box lang...nasa hiraman...ginagamit ng ate ko e :lol:)

SONY DISCMAN (gift from my tatay) >>> sobrang love ko to...nakailang sira na..pinapagawa ko pa din...hindi ko pagpapalit sa IPOD to...nyahahah (unless libre ung IPOD :lmao:)

SONY DSC-P43 with 4gb memstick (my first digicam )

SONY PSP fat (from AJ :D)

CASIO EXILIM EX Z75

CANON INTELLIGENT ORGANIZER DM4700 (na ninenok ko sa kapatid ko kase hindi nya ginagamit...hindi mabilhan ng battery :lmao:)

CREATIVE MUVO TX FM (classic na..pero love ko talaga..unang purchase ko sa bpi cc ko e..)

LEATHERMAN WAVE (from my kuya melvin.....ito pinaka fave ko sa lahat...kase meron syang....
Needlenose Pliers
Regular Pliers
Wire Cutters
Hard-Wire Cutters
Clip-Point Knife
Serrated Knife
Saw
Scissors
Wood/Metal File
Diamond-Coated File
Large Bit Driver
Small Bit Driver
Large Screwdriver
Ruler (8 inch/19 cm)
Bottle/Can Opener
Wire Stripper
Lanyard Attachment
Two Double-Ended Bits
(revelation ito...nyahahaha....mekanikal e..sinong kakasa? :lol:)

AND MY NOKIA 6630.
i love my 6630 :D

YAN :D

INSIDE MY KIKAY KIT

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(:giggle: ate kims..tnx sa kikay kit ha :giggle:)

small mirror
ballpens (techpen, glitterpen, lahat ng pens :lol:)
hair comb and hair brush
Penlight
Pressed powder
Small cloth wipe for my eyeglasses
Purple shades eyeshadow
Pink Gellato eyes cream
Lipstick (Avon colortrend Rio, Avon Simply Pretty Buttercup)
Lip Balm (Avon Flavor Savers Strawberry)
Hair Polish
Victoria's Secret Body Spray (in the pic is Sweet Temptation Scent)
Toothpaste
Toothbrush
Casio Exilim Digicam and tripod
Creative Muvo Tx Fm Mp3 player
Letherman Wave knife and tools
Rosaries (2 rings, wrist)


:lol: dala ko lahat yan lagi.

Minsan may nakasuksok na snickers sa isang pocket jan :hyper: nagkataon lang nakain ko na kanina :lmao:
Just woke up. 630pm.

Sarap talaga ng Sunday. Nasa bahay lang. Pahiga-higa. Post mode sa Symbianize. Tawa to the max sa kulitan.

Oh how i love Sundays.