Thursday, July 31, 2008

la la la

la la la

Wednesday, July 30, 2008


"In life, you will realize that the people you meet have a purpose. Some were put to there to test you, some would use you, some would teach you and some would bring out the better if not the best in you. Some may even cause you pain and heartache but one must learn to move on. So let go of the people who can't treat you right, and hold on to those who love you back and see your worth."
07/30/08 1:50pm

ang tawag jan... you should know the face of your enemy. so never delete the number of those stupid persons in your life.. because at one point in your life, they would pop up and tada! ayan, may message pa :D

hey honey, still thinking of me? did this message hit you? ahaha.

crap. pakamatay ka na lang.

i'm happy now :)

Tuesday, July 29, 2008


:yell: so many things to do today.. so little time... i need 25hours today to accomplish all my goals. :yell:


Monday, July 28, 2008



Adik na ata ako. Kakaisip ko ng formula sa trigonometry at geometry, napanaginipan ko Math problems na may kasamang calculus ang solution.


Tuesday, July 22, 2008


I was reviewing my lecture about solid mensuration when my brain suddenly called for a halt, maybe just a five-minute recess from the complexity of formulas for area and perimeter of these plane figures.

I then found myself imposing some questions. I was half smiling when i realize that i am in my Autocad class, and for me to be seen by my students staring blankly while momentarily grinning into something that is supposedly printed on that lecture notes all my by myself.. would have made them resign into thinking that my mental stability has been blown out of proportion.

Why then am i making my life complicated with these? What if i screwed in my review session with the arriba-would-be-engineers? WHat if my mind suddenly went blank during my session? What if they don't learn the easiest way possible?Would they throw tomatoes at me? or raise their hackles to their former autocad prof? waaaaaaaaa

Pesimism. Haha. It's killing me. It's blocking the runway of arithmetic juices ciirculating my very being. Sometimes, i need to be on the dark side in order for me to recognize my worst. The what-ifs that i do not want to happen. That what-ifs that i should never commit. Try not. Do or do not. There is no try. (master Yoda, isdachu?)

I know i could do it. Sir Joe believed i could. I couldn't fail the persons who trusted me wholeheartedly to do this. This is no cinch.I've to work and study harder in order for me to master every nook and cranny of this task.

Why then did i choose the path to nerdness instead of just dozing myself to bed, or stucking my fingers in the PSP, or laughing to my heart out as i disgorge my crankness in the shoutbox(es)? Ahahaha.

With Sir Joe importuning me to do the Math review class (under some duress..hahaha) with the absolute conviction that i can do it, (and would have loved to do it again and again and again...), i was never gladder to have been conscripted to do something i should have done a long time ago :)

To do some things that define me as a person, to carry out some things that mark my worth as a being.

Ahahaha. Enough for this. Tomorrow is another day. AH wala pala pasok. Pasyal mode pala ako with Jeng. hihihi.

Sunday, July 20, 2008


Have been out for three consecutive saturday nights.

I am not raised in such a way that my natural predilection is into a life of barkada and night outs. (Mabait po akong bata. Bow) Though there really are times when i'd find my schedule fully-booked, occupied with some extra-curricular activities which i deem beneficial for my unabated growth as an asinine mortal. lols.

The first night i departed from my old bed got me snoring comfortably after the cheers and jeers of three birthday celebrations we had in Tagaytay with my Servi fellas. (see Pamaytay sa Tagaytay entry)

The second night out i spent with Jek, Qai, Qai's sis and cousin, storming the busy streets of Malate on a freaky Saturday.

The third Sat night i spent with ninz, jessie and susie at Tatay Fred's house in San Pablo.

Muntik na ko maka bingo last Saturday.

Sumuko na lang si ako at nagkafever.

Na miss tuloy kita.

Friday, July 18, 2008


I deleted some songs in the playlist in my psp. I believe it's one brave thing i have done, to depart from the songs that used to lighten up my heart.

These songs used to be my companion when my soul wandered all alone in confusion. Endorsed by a very dear friend, i couldn't depart from the memories of our friendship with these songs. I dearly kept it all through these trying times, and played it one by one whenever i need a lift. Though i have to admit that there are times when i would confuse those songs to what he was trying to tell me. The melodies satisfy my audible senses as it flourish wonderful emotions to my spirit. And i believe i was never the same.

Fast forward.

I don't want to hear those songs again.

I couldn't quantify my emotions as i allow those songs to penetrate the very heart of me.

I don't know if it is called PAIN, or something... i really don't know.

But it does feel better after i have deleted them.

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Pro forma

Haven't blogged for quite some time. Been happy and depressed in equal measure. Silly me.

I chose to contemplate on some things apart from this den. It's just that I'm quite not sure if it is hell alright to have the rabble roused into my jumbled existence.

May i beg my pardon?

Sunday, July 13, 2008

SYL'S 15th Anniv


Thursday, July 10, 2008

.o0O The tension of opposites O0o.

We unlearn some things for us to learn new lessons.

We fall for us to stand.

We cry for us to laugh.

We suffer for us to prosper.

We get broken for us to be whole again.

We get hurt for us to love again.

We get crazy for us to be back to sanity.

We get wrong for us to know the right.

There will always be sunshine after the rain.

Wednesday, July 9, 2008


I miss my kuya melvin :(

Kuya, asan ka man, bowling na lang tayo....

Just missin you in one of the lowest points in your spoiled sister's life :(


not much of rants and raves.

been so preoccupied with the balls NYAKNYAK.gif
...uhh..i mean the luxor game in the psp.

now i'm done with those balls.

I need to get back to my own self.

Most of the times i think i'm the most stupid person on earth.

Silly me.

Stupid Lois.

Saturday, July 5, 2008


Death is a challenge. It tells us not to waste time... It tells us to tell each other right now that we love each other.
-Leo Buscaglia

"Lois, he's gone."

What could be more desolating than this morning message from Frances disclosing that Jepoy already had passed away. I suddenly felt gloominess creeping inside me.

It was just last Wednesday when Frances forwarded a text message from Ana: Jepoy was brought to the hospital the night before and was in coma.On his way home, he felt his face suddenly becoming numb, he went straight to the hospital where he had some veins fissured. The next day, i was informed that he only had 3% chance of survival and hope that he would be able to come back to his physical self at least within week.
But gone he is now.

We were classmates in elementary. Back then, we knew he was wide awake when God blessed the humanity with cuteness, but was in deep slumber when God sprinkled the blessings of vertical measurement. He's smart and quick on the uptake, no wonder he finished a bachelor's degree from the country's university.

I haven't had much tidings of him and some other classmates after we graduated in elementary. The strongest mark in my memory that i have of him is a dance presentation during our Grade 5 recognition. We hoofed it to Gary V's Shout for joy, with him as the sole guy member in the group and thus positioned at the center of every dance formation. It was only during our elementary reunion in June 2005 that we were able to come across with our elementary classmates again. Like the others, he had grown up to be a real man in physique, his bold and big frame extending upwards. After this reunion, we get in touch with each other from time to time, from chronic forwarded quote messaging to shallow chit-chats of what's new and what-happened-to-guess-who.

I could still remember the last time we went out for the movie Transformers. Frances, I, Jepoy and his friend, weren't lucky enough for a comfortable seat, we sat next to the front row
and got us stiffed necks after. Jepoy surprised us to having foot the bill on the popcorn during the movie. Then we had a short chinwagging over hot coffee after.

When Frances and i went out for a coffee just almost a month ago, we have agreed to watch another movie and have mutually decided to tag along Jepoy again. We haven't polished the details yet until this incident hit us.

Jepoy has found his own place where he can finally rest.

So young of him. I could feel the boundless grief his family is having right now, resigning themselves to having lost their only son, I could just commiserate to them to what has happened. He could have done more things here on earth, defying the odds and snares of the ordinary life. But maybe, God wanted Jepoy beside Him the soonest for He had better plans for him.

Why is it that the good die young... and the bad ones shrivel away only after a long, long time? Sometimes, heaven plays cruel tricks on earth.

But we cannot question fate. We can only let ourselves understand that there are reasons behind all the things that have been happening to us, that there are wondrous gains to reap from all of these. We may not understand now maybe, but in time, it will enter our reckoning.

Death teaches us the value of life. As i cringe from knowing how Jepoy left this physical world, i can't help but wonder how then would i be leaving this place also. Death doesn't take the path of the natural order of things, not even FIFO (First in, first out) It will strike us in our own time, and not even one of us knows when.

I almost thought i was dying sometime weeks ago. Currently on a near-death situation, i know i couldn't defy the odds. When i woke up the day after, i was elated with joy and high spirits for having another chance to experience life and all of its wonders. I committed myself to enjoy each day of my life (at least if i really could without being depressed for some serious reasons)

Death teaches us that the time is now. So waste no time and tell each person how much you love, treasure and value them.

And to Jepoy, we won't be able to watch the sequel of Transformers the movie, but we know for sure that you will be watching us all here, as we all perform to our best, in this real movie called life.

God bless you always.

Wednesday, July 2, 2008


Didn't get enough sleep. Went offline also. Was i so damn hooked in Luxor, Challenge of the Pharaoh.

Lagi na lang ba ganito? nyahahahah.