Monday, January 31, 2011


This whole day affair with headache needs to stop.
The more i try to ignore it, the more it pounds the hell out on me.

Gotta go home at four.

new Arbeitgeber

Is expecting a call from an Arbeitgeber.
Lemme nail this one.
Hell, i need a new life.

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Kopi mubi

Thank you Lord for your pipelines of love in the form of two-legged creatures called  friends.

Had a great kopi and mubi date with jenn.

I miss my ate kims.

Work again tomorrow.



Saturday, January 29, 2011



Its freezin cold here.

Friday, January 28, 2011


pressured na naman #-o

i need a breather

God give me the strength to hold on

10 Commandments of Life

i got mail today from Ms. Eva:

1] Prayer is not a "spare wheel" that you pull out when in trouble, but it is a "steering wheel" that directs the right path throughout.

2] So a Car's WINDSHIELD is so large & the Rear view Mirror is so small? Because our PAST is not as important as our FUTURE. So, Look Ahead and Move on.

3] Friendship is like a BOOK. It takes few seconds to burn, but it takes years to write.

4] All things in life are temporary. If going well, enjoy it, they will not last forever. If going wrong, don't worry, they can't last long either.

5] Old Friends are Gold! New Friends are Diamond! If you get a Diamond, don't forget the Gold! Because to hold a Diamond, you always need a Base of Gold!

6] Often when we lose hope and think this is the end, GOD smiles from above and says, "Relax, sweetheart, it's just a bend, not the end!

7] When GOD solves your problems, you have faith in HIS abilities; when GOD doesn't solve your problems HE has faith in your abilities.

8] A blind person asked St. Anthony: "Can there be anything worse than losing eye sight?" He replied: "Yes, losing your vision!"

9] When you pray for others, God listens to you and blesses them, and sometimes, when you are safe and happy, remember that someone has prayed for you.

10] WORRYING does not take away tomorrow's TROUBLES, it takes away today’s PEACE.

Thursday, January 27, 2011


Looking back, i sum up all those almost million coins i spent in exchange for my existence today. It was last year when i came up with the hardest and fiercest decision ever to be made for the last 2 decades as i cup the one thing i would love to hold in my hand, my very own life. Fear and pain were at the forefront of my emotions, of grave sinister delights as i abandon those pills that propelled me to the present.

I know the pains and regrets of those days had been heaped up, as they were acknowledged and placed to where memories are safely and dearly kept.

And i am now here. Breathing. Alive.

I know i wouldn't last longer as expected to every human alive, but at least i would love to do what an ordinary one ought to. The craft of my life is lifted with the incoming tide, as i sway and get myself carried by the river of time into whatever the future may bring.

Wednesday, January 26, 2011


I hate it and it hurts a lot when his name would be dragged in a conversation that has everything to do with me.

For crying out loud, i have my own life to live, and while he has made his choice, and i respect him with all my might.




utak: pano kung pagbalik nya iba na laman ng puso nya?
puso: pano kung pinanghahawakan pa din nya ung pangako nya?
utak: pano ka na?
puso: ang tanong, pano kung wala na sya?
utak: pano nga ba?
puso: ?

Tuesday, January 25, 2011


Pineapple Tuesday!

The zipper of my pants had come off completely as it got broke minutes before an interview. I didn't see it coming, i just realized that something is a bit loose when i got off the car. Ye, i had my blouse tuck in.

I got back inside the car and look for whatever emergency fixes available, but to no avail. I had to carry an envelope low enough to hide the opening gate. lol.

What could be more devastating than this =))


My head still aches.

I stormed out of bed in a late 7am and have whisked past an hour to prepare for another quest for career growth. I wasn't that too excited for it, i was sick since yesterday finding relevant parallels to guide me in resolving some dilemmas i have gotten myself into.

> to quit or not to quit
> stay and pursue my PME
> attend the interview today
> to quit to give justice to my sleepless and tearful nights
> to stay to be used again and again

I don't know.

My head aches.

Monday, January 24, 2011


Maybe i was just superstressed.

Or maybe Grace had gotten me on my way to chickenpox kingdom. Oh God please no no no.

It just felt so debilitating i could barely move. I even had difficulty driving.

Jojit got me an antidote in the form of grande hot white choco and hot cinammon roll.
(thanks a bunch for the treat)

Though it saddens me that i only have my ceilings to watch over me, it feels comforting to just lie here on my bed with the sheets rolled up.

My solitary life.

I hope i get well tomorrow.

Nyt nyt lovies.

I love my job


by Francis Kong

Dr. Seuss came up with a poem entitled “I Love My Job” and it is so funny in its attempt to reflect reality. Now listen to this:

I love my job, I love the pay, I love it more and more each day.

I love my boss and he's the best. I love HIS boss and all the rest.

I love my office and it's location. I hate to have to take vacation.

I love my desk, drab and gray, and love those paper piles each day.

I love my chair in my padded cell; there's nothing else I love so well.

I love to work among my peers. I love their leers 'n jeers 'n sneers.

I love my computer and all its ware; I hug it often to show I care.

I love each program and every file; I even try using it once in a while.

I'm happy to be here, I am, I am...I'm the happiest slave to my Uncle Sam.

I love this work; I love these chores; I love the meetings with deadly bores.

I love my job AND I'll say it again, I even love these friendly men:

These men who've come to visit today, in lovely white coats to take me away!

So what is he saying here? That those who really love their jobs are truly insane?

This is funny and it actually reflects the attitude of many people in the work place.

What about you? Do you share the same sentiment?

If you think your job is awful allow me to give you a list of the world’s most terrible jobs. And here is the list:

  1. Nuclear Warhead Sensistivity Technician
  2. Circus Elephant Clean Up Specialist
  3. Rotten Sardine Taste Detector
  4. Executive Assistant To The Boss's Nephew
  5. Shark Baiter
  6. Russian Cartographer
  7. Vice President, Screen Door Sales, North Pole Division
  8. Hurricane Photographer
  9. Director Of Public Relations, Chernobyl Nuclear Facility
  10. The Person Responsible For Replacing Urinal Deodorizers
  11. Prison Glee Club President
  12. MGB Electrical Specialist
  13. Road Kill Removal Crew

A lot of people complain all the time about the kind of jobs they are involved in yet when news travel through the grapevine that a re-engineering is about to take place, layoffs will happen, that will be the only time they begin to value their jobs.

No one can make you happy and neither can anyone make you unhappy in your job. It is your choice you make and no one can make that choice for you. There are people out there who would be happy to take over your job if you are willing to hand it over.

Work is a blessing. It is not a curse. It becomes a curse when you make it so.

Only productive people can be happy and only the happy people can be productive. This has been the secret of winners and now this secret is yours to keep.

Stop focusing on your boss as the monster and start focusing on God as your Provider and Employer and do everything you can to make the most out of your job. Learn new things. Improve your craft. And then suddenly, a mysterious thing begins to happen. You begin to be excited with your job.

Just a parting thought:

Live every day as if it were your last. Do every job as if you were the boss. Drive as if all other vehicles were police cars. Treat everybody else as if he were you.

Love God serve Him and men and enjoy your day.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

baskin' and swayin'

baskin' and swayin'

"Life is a storm, my young friend. You will bask in the sunlight one moment, be shattered on the rocks the next. What makes you a man is what you do when that storm comes." - Alexandre Dumas

Saturday, January 22, 2011


One can enjoy a rainbow without necessarily forgetting the forces that made it. - Mark Twain

Weekends are a bit like rainbows; they look good from a distance but disappear when you get up close to them. - John Shirley

eton dscw130.


We learn as we move along, and we cannot do so without giving up some things in exchange for other.


Friday, January 21, 2011

next full show

The moon was flirting with me last night up 'till this morning.

Flirt well because i'll catch you with my lens on your next full show.

Missing my dear d40.

Monday, January 17, 2011


Bat nawala ung mga sinulat ko?

Sunday, January 16, 2011


so this isn't a relaxing weekend.
but a horrible one.
thank you boss.



i want out.


Saturday, January 15, 2011


am no good.
this is indeed gameover.
the boss had pissed me real damn bad.

hello unemployment.


last day of work. yipee. looking forward for a relaxing weekend :)

Friday, January 14, 2011

twin thieves

Twin thieves that robbed me off my energy before the day ends: CDSC who promised to call me about my cam repair but failed to do so, and the anonymous someone prying intrusively in our japanese boss approved lunch out. Now, let's pull the plug and get a life a couple of notches better than today :) May God bless us all.


Thursday, January 13, 2011


When my watch got lost yesterday, it felt as if something also got lost deep inside of me. For a moment, it made me feel so guilty for ever so wanting a new one. It may have been old, faded, scratched, and with a lot of dings, but it had been my companion for the past five years, a souvenir purchase from the cash incentive that i had for having the perfect attendance for the year 2004.

After minutes of searching, it was a relief that it had been found by an office mate at the admin building. Thanks Jel for the safekeeping.

My watch keeps perfect time, it is so special i could set my heart in it.

Yep, it stopped the day i met a superhero.


Missing you.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011


i am excited for my first stocks.


stock market... here i come!

mutual addiction

What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction.
Chuck Palahniuk

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

I'm kind of excited with how i am starting this year.

2011 is the perfect time to change the diet upon which i have been feeding my being.

There is a wide spectrum of views upon which i would want to live my life. I used to be always torn between idealism and cynicism in facing my life's challenges. Oh well, amidst the constraints which have always been at war with my supposed actions, now's the time for me to act based on my set targets.


I'm kind of excited with how i am starting this year.

Monday, January 10, 2011


no net for four consecutive days.


i hate you pielditi

Friday, January 7, 2011


Thursday, January 6, 2011


No one can begin to comprehend the scale of annoyance and the enormity of anger that has weighed upon me every minute of my labor mandated hours in the aftermath of this mind boggling atrocity. PHRASE OF THE DAY: SAVE ME!

It's an annoying Thursday. It sucks when my office mates aren't around and their workloads are passed on me. Congratulations. The pressure is instantly now on my shoulders. Holy guacamole, holy holy cow.

I have been mired too long in the muck of annoyance.



Wednesday, January 5, 2011



missin' daryo


the best revenge of all: HAPPINESS

That’s the best revenge of all: HAPPINESS. Nothing drives people crazier than seeing someone have a good fucking life.
Chuck Palahniuk (via fullwithlove)

Tuesday, January 4, 2011



hello. i'm busy. ttyl. again.


Sleepy Tuesday.
It's kinda cold and I'd be more than happy to share a soup of hot bulalo with the superhero.
I miss you daryo :) Much.

Here's for my 2011

Last year, my friend Jojit and I started exchanging targets, goals, and dreams for the new year. We list the things that swing between the specific and not that specific, issues and things that range from just anything under the sun that we want to acquire, achieve, accomplish.

We made a funny but grand list last year and so we thought of doing the same again, sharing to each other just in case an external help would be required in order for us to succeed with our items. lol.

Here's for my 2011:

> 1 travel out of the country for leisure
> minute vacations to at least 2 beaches / island getaway
> mutual funds/stock market investments
> tagaytay lot
> 1 gadget
> new friends at least 12 in a year
> read books at least 12 in a year
> car repaint
> goodbye outstanding credit card balance
> move on with my job, apply and be successful
> continue living a healthy and balance life
> rekindle photography skills
> more foodtrips
> scrapbook!
> marry. LOL . JOKE LANG =)) [asa pa me, nangangarap lang. 'to naman di na mabiro. hahaha]

These were the things that just popped out of my mind the moment i was replying to his email.

This 2011, I'd like to enrich my life with more moments that would take my breath away, as I thank God for this life extension. For someone whose everyday companion is a malady of a sort, heaven knows no beauty than a life extended. Oh God, please do not diffuse the ticking time bomb in my body, I'd like to still have a lot more life with a lot more years :)

The world is filled with dream crushers and idea killers, nevertheless... DREAM! - John Maxwell

Monday, January 3, 2011


The first day of work for the year usually kicks in my system as the start of a new year. After hibernating for a few days in the comfort of my bedroom, cashmere sheet pulled up, away from the hustle and bustle of the forging men and machines, i am now back on track. The raggedness and pushiness of my everyday laboring life had already kicked off.
Toll fee had increased from P2 to P6

My I'm NOT a paper cup! cup surviving a year of not being thrown away (again) by our Japanese boss after once being mistaken as a ... well ... a paper cup.

My bitterness at it's finest planner for 2011 . My first to skip on a Starbucks Planner after taking a halt on my coffee addiction.

This is such a year and as i fall into silence of a collective respect, i will strive to make this year a couple of notches better than the past.

Will live healthy by continuously having the right diet for me.
Will pray harder.
Will love like there's no tomorrow.

EAT, PRAY, LOVE for 2011.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

Big at Bigby's

The travel from Tanay Rizal back to Cubao had me exhausted, and the hunting for Columbia Photo at Megamall got me tired out completely, so i decided to give myself an emergency rest. I was about to settle for a McDo burger fish fillet but then the store was crowded. I opted to eat at Bigby's instead.

cream and mushroom soup

Note to self:
Don't order a bowl of soup at bigby's if you still want to savor the main course. The soup will keep you full till you can no longer enjoy your meal
. deym.

passion fish meal

I was cobbling up the melancholy wind while spending time with myself. Welcome 2011.

Saturday, January 1, 2011

An Online Love Affair

This is so heartwarming. Thanks Jenn. I love you too.


An Online Love Affair
by Jenn Lamarca on Saturday, January 1, 2011 at 1:07am

Disclaimer: This is my first and last blog for 2010 and this post is basically an incoherent rambling of a geekette on a sugary caffeine high. Please bear with me.

2010 is drawing to a close in a handful of hours. For me, this has been an extremely remarkable year. A year of myriad emotions that remind me of Skittles; some were bright, some were sweet and some were so tart it made you screw your face up and think if you wanted to spit it out.

This blog is for my Beloved Ohana.


Aaaah... cyberspace, the last frontier.

I have always had an intense love affair with words, whether it was reading or writing. Back in college, our sociology professor Dr. Josephine Aguilar told us that in one of her studies, she noticed that most people would make friends because they were thrust upon by circumstance and friendships were formed because people were unconsciously drawn together by their innate commonalities and shared experience. To help us determine if this was true or if we can substantiate this claim, she then made us register on an online forum and made us decide on whether the adage "we can choose our friends but not our family" is applicable to the scenario.

Most of my classmates then sort of complained because they had the preconceived notion that message boards were for people who didn't have anything better to do with their life. They equated it with the then popular MIRC; a place where losers can pretend to be whoever they wanted to be because the other person who was reading your post wouldnt be able to know if you were a boy or a girl.

I registered on, a then fledgling-year-old Filipino owned/moderated message board.

This was the start of a decade long (and going strong) love affair with the Interwebs.

PEx is a place that deals with Philippine issues which caters to the Filipino's love for conversation. This is where I found out that YES, you can choose your friends AND your family.

I have been with PEx for 10 years and have posted hundreds of thousands of replies, met a lot of people (some good, some disgusting) and expanded my family. This is where one of my friend's said back in 05.01.07 when I felt sad and depressed for being single for a long time " I don’t rush into falling in love, for love never runs out. Even if they mock me coz I'm single, I just tell them, God is just busy writing the best love story for me… -Gian”

Five years ago, if someone told me that I was going to be married to the most wonderful man in the world, it would have thrown me into a frenzy of thinking that the next guy I lay my eyes on would've been the one. Thankfully, this didn't happen.

Five years ago, I was this crazy law student who didn't sleep because she was too busy with school AND her two jobs; whose only downtime was in the evenings where she was too punch drunk with digesting cases she had to go out of the library and meet up with the wonderfully interesting people she had talked to in PEx

Aileen: you are the (first) sister I never had. Thank you for taking the initiative to know me. You have been with me through my deepest funks to my highest highs. You dont get mad whenever I go crazy and go hide up in my tower, you patiently wait for me to come back and listen as I rant. Who would've thought that we would end up as each other's Matron-Of-Honor? :) Thank You for being such a specially wonderful lady.

Andy: You are the first person in PEx that I became close to. Thank you for being a constant part of my life, a quiet and simple guy who makes everything alright with the right smart sense of humor that you posses.

Precious: I have always felt honor for you chose me to be your (sometimes) confidant. Thank you for being such a lovely lady, ex-colleague and friend.

Chuck: I dont know if you feel this, but you also have been a quiet companion in my life. My confidant and sounding board. You let me pester you even when you're busy. Your intellect and humor and (sometime) jologness makes you one interesting guy.

Juju: Like Chuck, you have been a constant companion in my life where humor has made my life interestingly light. I love spending time with you.

Lois: You are one of the strongest women I know. You never have given up on life even if it hasnt been fair. In my eyes, you are one of the most beautiful women in the world because you are smart, strong and loving. I am honored to be part of your Life.

Aileen/Andy/Chuck/Juju/Precious/Lois: Thank you for letting me be part of your life. There maybe times that I have been an annoying brat, for that I apologize. I truly appreciate the friendship that we share and hope that it lasts for a long time. You guys are my Ohana.

To my other PEx friends... just because you remain unnamed doesn't mean that you do not hold a special place in my Heart. All I can say is that I have been with PEx longer than most people have been in relationships. Thank you for being a part of my life...


The internet also plays a big part in my REAL love story. It allowed me and Zedrick to have constant communication even though we were thousands of miles apart.

Zedrick: My Heart, M'anamchara, My Husband... You are everything that I have prayed to God for and more. I love us. Its like what Elizabeth Gilbert said: "People think a soul mate is your perfect fit and that's what everyone wants, but a true soulmate is a mirror, the person that shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life." I have learned alot from you and am still learning. Thank you Love, for bearing with me through my bratty days, for loving my dorky nerdy geekiness. For whenever I am with you, I can be me without fear of judgement.

Ashley: Thank you for being my Mahal's sister and in turn, for being my sister too. We havent seen each other; yet I feel your love through Zedrick. It is an honor for me that a person who I barely know loves me as much as she loves her bestfriend, for the mere fact that I am the wife of your bestfriend.


As 2010 ends, I welcome 2011 with arms wide open because I know that with my Ohana with me; I can survive anything, because they support me and I can be whoever I am destined to be because they inspire me.

Happy New Year!