Thursday, June 30, 2011

2011. Halfway done.

2011. Halfway done.

What have i done in the last six months?

I was reviewing my 2011 targets if at least life has made me accomplish something, and here are the findings:

1. Travel out of the country for leisure: I haven't been out of the country for leisure for the last six months and i do hope before the year ends, the Good Lord shall permit me to step on the land outside Pilipinas.

2. Beach Island getaway: I spent a tiring yet fulfilling day off to Corregidor, a very memorable and gorgeous Puerto Princesa (Palawan) tour with Honda Bay island hopping, a serene week off to Iloilo with Guimaras tour. And to note an incoming Boracay chill this August ^_^ This is over target for the year but i am very thankful that God has made me enjoy life and nature and relationships more deeply.

3. Mutual Funds/Stock Market Investments: I feel like a millionaire! Lol. I have a paltry share in the Philippine Stock Market but having less is better than none at all. My venture with the stockmarket opened a whole new different world and perspective, and has brought in me hope and confidence in the days to come. I remember the first time i received a 25-peso dividend from SMPH and rejoicing as if i received 25,000! Lol. The amount may be too small or even unnoticeable but hey, 24 more years and i'll be jacking up as a millionaire ^_^ My diversified portfolio has shares on Energy Dev't Corp, Ayala Land Inc, Jolibee Foods Corp, SM Prime Holdings, BPI and Metrobank.

4. Tagaytay Lot: Oh well, i am still not saying goodbye to the probability of owning a lot in Tagaytay, but for the mean time, i'll be focusing more on my new house in Cabuyao. Can't wait to finally move in :)

5. One Gadget: Pass. I still got 5months to save up for a new one. Lemme get back to you before the year ends.

6. New Friends: I met a lot of friends when i went to Iloilo, and i do hope to foster camaraderie with them in the days to come.

7. Books: Oh well, this spells LAG. I have read Bo Sanchez' My Maids invest in Stock Market, Cliffnote's Investing in the Stockmarket, and.. the rest is.. sleep. I hate myself for spending time watching a hell lot of movies that i haven't been able to read a lot of books. Six months for a catch-up, it's a must.

8. Car repaint: Pass. Budget alarm flickering.

9. Outstanding credit card balance: I'm a winner!

10. Move on with my job, apply and be successful: I am still at the forging plant, but i have pending interviews and applications to attend. Hopefully i'll be able to nail one.

11. Continue living a healthy and balance life: I'm doomed. I haven't been disciplined at all lately :'( I gained a lot of weight. But hell yeah, i will strive harder this time. (Say i need a bora body next month) *BIG EVIL GRIN*

12. Rekindle photography skills: I have covered events that has somehow made me rekindle the skills, but i know that isn't enough. More seminars, more practice.

13. Foodtrips: Winner!

14. Scrapbook: Failed :'( I need more time to clean my room. Lol. I need inspiration!

15. Marry (LOL J/K): *haze*

Well, the other half of 2011 is waiting for me. I know it has a lot in store for me, so let's get it on!

Wednesday, June 29, 2011


Yesterday isn't good. I was the villain at its finest, scrutinizing the discrepancies and inconsistencies in the system. Why can't i just walk away and never return back here? It's so frustrating to continuously survive with the assholes around. Slowly, i know i am becoming one, the more i try to stay away from them, the more i am driven to lurk here, which is kind of .... fatal.

This got me into thinking about the inconsistencies and discrepancies in my life as well. I go home to a place that doesn't really feel like one. Solitude is a buddy, and it doesn't ever leave me. All alone i while the night away thinking about the what-ifs, hows and whys. Such a boring life lurking in my darkest.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

tiring Tuesday

It's a tiring Tuesday. Everything is in chaos.

I wish i could just snap my fingers and freeze everything while i take my graceful exit in this chaotic world.

I need a breather.

Monday, June 27, 2011


06262011.Pig Out.Contis.Nuvali

Sunday, June 26, 2011

mathematics of cooperation and synergy

The mathematics of cooperation and synergy:

Delegation and release:
subtract the effort,
add up the fun,
divide the stress
and multiply the effectiveness.

joy and efficiency increase in exponential ways!

-Obet Cabrillas (

Friday, June 24, 2011


The every night fight with my uncle is indeed very exhausting. I wish i have other options than to fight back. I am slowly dying inside.....

Things just can't go back the way it used to be.

Things just can't go back the way it used to be.

It's a real damn fact that i just have to live with from this day. I was in deep emotional trouble yesterday with the rain pourin' harder while nursing my thoughts about friendship that is slowly trickling down the drain. The more i try to save the friendship, the more i try to hurt myself. I just have to accept the fact that at some point in my life, i need to let go of something that isn't meant to coexist with me. I remember one time we were just enjoying our togetherness when i told him to slow down a bit, because i might get used to being with him and parting when the time comes would surely hurt me as hell. He just smiled and told me that i could cry a hell lot for his loss and i would never see him again, enough to forget that he, at one point in my life, coexisted with mine. That's the worst for me to bear, but i know my friend's a real crap and shitty, and i love him for being like that.

Little by little, the gap that has been expanding between us had me rethinking about the bond. I know we have been tested by time and tragedy, of hurt and loss, of sorrow and pain. Likewise, we have been forged by proximity, of feelings and aches, of passion, culture, and everything that we have shared under the roof of our friendship. I love him in spite of all the hell in his personality. I care for him as i would for a sibling. I love him with all his foul odors, split personality, damned attitude, crappy antics, all the shit in him. I love him for taking care of me at one point in his life, as we stood back to back, hand in hand in the journey of our both miserable lives. I love the asshole in him, just as he loves the eccentricity in me, or so i thought.

The downside of being too close to a friend is that you get hurt twice or thrice the pain of having your very own heartache from ending a relationship with a romantic partner. It sucks when you feel you are no longer valued or given importance by someone you have treasured so much., someone you have taken care of as great friendships do. When i felt downgraded in his priority list, i am just one silly poor turtle wanting to be swept by the tides of hell. Poor princess lois.

I just wish things could still go back the way they used to be. I just wish they would. I just wish they could. If only.

drivin' on a heavy rainy mornin'

drivin' on a heavy rainy mornin'

Tuesday, June 21, 2011


wandering on guimaras

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Parish of St. Jerome (Dueñas, Iloilo)

Parish of St. Jerome (Dueñas, Iloilo)

The parish was formerly called Laglag. Basically, the church has the same structure as the Lambunao and Calinog churches if not for the dome which has a Romanesque influence. On the other hand, the massiveness of the façade and the bell towers suggests a Baroque influence.

The primitive church was made of wood. Later, the church made of stone was destroyed by the earthquake of 1787.

In 1878, the construction of a structure made of stone and bricks with the interiors following the Tuscan order and the exterior of Doric origins, was started under the supervision of Fr. Nicholas Gallo. It has one nave and two spacious transept, measures 65 meters long and 16 meters wide.

Like its neighboring churches, the Dueñas Catholic church was also damaged during the 1948 earthquake that shook the whole island of panay.

The heave doric columns are mounted on a rectangular section divided into three equal segments. Semi-circular arched blind fenestrations flanked both sides of the semi-circular arched entrance. Each one crowned with rose windows that indicates the second story and choir loft. The roundness of the front columns contrasts with the flat rectangular pilasters on the side wall.


ye. Sunday's best. Me and my happy feet here :)

Saturday, June 18, 2011


and where will my new shoes take me?

wishing. hoping. praying.

Friday, June 17, 2011

I sit here and wonder if you'll ever understand just how much of me belongs to you.

Sabang Beach, Puerto Princesa, Palawan / 042111

I sit here and wonder if you'll ever understand just how much of me belongs to you.


Nakasagap ako ng virus kay boss.
Ngayon ay malapit na ako lagnatin.

Thursday, June 16, 2011


I just don't feel good today



You will fall in love to a person who just can't love you back the way you hell want him to.

Wednesday, June 15, 2011


Maybe we should develop a Crayola bomb as our next secret weapon. A happiness weapon. A Beauty Bomb. And every time a crisis developed, we would launch one. It would explode
high in the air, explode softly and send thousands, millions, of little parachutes into the air. Floating down to earth boxes of Crayolas. And we wouldn't go cheap either, not little boxes of eight, but boxes of sixty-four, with the sharpener built right in. With silver and gold and copper, magenta and peace and lime, amber and umber and all the rest.

And people would smile and get a little funny look on their faces and cover the world with imagination instead of death. A child who touched one wouldn't have his hand blown off. (Robert Fulghum)

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Someday, i will be great

Disappointments come in very, very handy while you are so dead sure you won't ever wanna know its existence.

It is this rainy Tuesday morning when disappointment greeted me in its full vigor at the onset of this tedious labor hours. Hell yeah, i could have just played dead while my boss happily and continuously punctured the wounds he had inflicted on me, bullshitting me at its finest. Hell indeed, getting both my hands an eight-hole punch in our production press is way better than sitting here next to him.

The only way to get even is to work smarter. I should have flashed the GAMEOVER signal under the working harder card. I know the day will come when i would have the greatest opportunity to depart from the ranks of these vultures.

Someday, i will be great.

Mark my words. I WILL BE GREAT.

f*ck u boss. to hell with u.

Monday, June 13, 2011


LRT-1 Pedro Gil Station / May 17, 2011 / HTC wildfire

We're too busy waiting for something, disregarding things around all the while.
We're so blinded with glitter we miss out on the gold.

Sabi nga sa kin ni Meng:
Ur so engulfed sa past mo
nag lalakad kang naka talikod kaya nde mo na papansin yung mga nasa harap mo.


Hey, who am i now?

Today isn't a good one for me. I seem to have woken up with a big rock in my head, it feels so heavy i must have consumed my allotted day's energy just by dragging it out of bed.

I feel so empty on a Monday morning. I wonder what have i been doing to myself lately, been recklessly impudent to myself, allowing things and events to take place with all my sudden approval.

Hey, who am i now?

Sunday, June 12, 2011


Gibbs: Jack, I have to ask. You had the chalices, the water, the tear, you could have lived maybe forever?

Jack Sparrow: The fountain does test you Gibbs. But better to not know which moment maybe your last. Every morsel of your entire being alive to the infinite mystery of it all. And who's to say I won't live forever, hey? Discoverer of the fountain of youth. I have no say in it, Gibbs. It's a pirates life for me. Savvy!

(Pirates of the Caribbean - On Stranger Tides)

And who's to say i won't live forever?

I'm still here, but hey, you know i am always ready to go.


Saturday, June 11, 2011



i told yah. you've been fooled.




really gotta hate myself.





Having grown up with very ample resources had taught us to appreciate everything that we have, and made us learn to be grateful to everything that we have been able to experience on what has become a very rich and full life.

Friday, June 10, 2011


Breaking the chains of conflicts and frustrations.
Here...... take me.
I'm yours lord gaba.

Thursday, June 9, 2011



Looking for Better Management.

Wednesday, June 8, 2011


It's rainin' cats and dogs!

Bed Weather!


Panalangin ko sa habang buhay
Makapiling ka Makasama ka
Yan ang panalangin ko

At hindi papayag ang pusong ito
Mawala ka sa 'king piling
Mahal ko iyong dinggin

Wala nang iba pang mas mahalaga
Sa tamis na dulot ng pag-ibig natin dal'wa
At sana nama'y makikinig ka
Kapag aking sabihing minamahal kita.....


lab lab lab


Aurelius Marcus, believed by many to be the wisest and most tolerant emperor of Rome wrote the following about facing death:

You have embarked, you have made the voyage, you have come to the shore: get out.

You have existed as a part. You shall disappear in that which produced you; or rather, you shall be received back into its seminal principle by transmutation.

Pass then through this little space of time conformably to nature, and end your journey in content, just as an olive falls off when it is ripe, blessing nature who produced it, and thanking the tree on which it grew.

Every part of me will be reduced by change into some part of the universe, and that again will change into another part of the universe, and so on forever.

And by consequence of such a change I too exist, and those who begot me, and so on forever in the other direction.

- Aurelius Marcus

Monday, June 6, 2011


Dear D,

In one way or another, I could still pick some evidences of your eccentricity in your remnants. Am i too blinded not to see it?

Saturday, June 4, 2011

short and long

Love is so short, forgetting is so long. - Pablo Neruda

mama epang

I was struck by a massive wave of sadness upon hearing the demise of my Aunt Epang yesterday morning. A part of me was lost. But i know the loss that i felt wouldn't par with what my youngest sister has been feeling.

When my mom died more than 25 years ago, my family had to split the caring of the four daughters she left. Ate Lovie and Ate Lei stayed with my uncle in our house, while me and my youngest sister got deployed far away to our aunt epang's house. My youngest sister loves her so much she considers her her own mom.

To our mama epang, you will always be remembered. Thank you for taking care of us, we love you so much.

Thursday, June 2, 2011

dear LX5

dear LX5,
i <3 u.
i need you here, beside me.