There's eternal beauty in the sunrise in the sky, but none of these and nothing else can match the beauty that I remember in my superhero's eyes.

There's eternal beauty in the sunrise in the sky, but none of these and nothing else can match the beauty that I remember in my superhero's eyes.

013010
Tagaytay

the moon is watching over me tonight

the moon is watching over me tonight
012910, sony dscw130


tonight..
i wonder...
if he sees the moon as i see it
if the wind blows colder where he stands
if the stars shine brightly where he peeks
if he ponders on his princess before he sleeps.

tonight...
i pray to God to keep him safe
to keep him strong and hold on to faith
and to give him strength
to face the morrow.

goodnight my superhero.

DEAD BEAT

dead beat.

ako.. ako.. lagi na lang ako.

WTF

When your superman's not around, don't do anything reckless or stupid.

I've been working harder and harder the past few weeks as i watched the days flick past the windows of my life. The first month of 2010 is taking its toll on the worried princess, wondering whether she was watching the spectacle of the steady emptying or the replenishing in the most mysterious ways she can imagine.

Amidst all the worries and aches... I am holding on to a promise.

QQ posted a comment for me this morning: When your superman's not around, don't do anything reckless or stupid :P ( Edward on my mind ):)

I will.
Promise.
Take good care of myself and be safe always.

No goodbyes.

Anyhow and anyways, I spent a moment last night with the remnants of my superhero.

Too much worries rattling in my fettered brain

It's rainin' on the early morning of the last week of the first month of 2010.

Tuesday, though fastidious about my personal appearance, i seemed like spindled and mutilated on the inside, secretly slovenly about everything else. I am somewhat kind of gauche today, as sermon from the boss had always been a morning staple here at work. Asked me why i haven't done the job right away, i could have answered that it is not the only work to do that time, but hell i know i couldn't just let go of those words, so i just smiled and replied that i'll get it done asap (in an instant rather, here it is.. ting!)

I could hear my internals chime in with horrible yowling noises. What the hell is my problem?! What the hell is wrong with me?!

Too much worries rattling in my fettered brain.

unanswerables

Another week starter and i hope i will be way better than the last few weeks. The more i think of getting back to my usual self, the more it gets harder.

I haven't filled up the scrapbook for a week because i just can't bear the brunt of getting myself whipped with painful worries and aches. I've been too much troubled for a month, reflected by the sudden pall of depression that is seeping through my very veins. It gets harder each day, and coping is the most difficult part of the matter. I've never been this worried in my entire life. Only now. Just only now.

A plethora of unanswerable is running through my head. Each moment of waiting feels like eternity. I sometimes see myself nearly transforming to the desperate version of me, wanting to speed up space and time to see infinite moments of comfort and security. Where everything is sublime, everything has an aura. Euphoria that is. But when?

Unanswerable.

:(

Pierce me with too much longing.

Why is love intensified by absence?

Why is love intensified by absence?



waiting....

**depression mode**

Feels like i've been working way too much beyond my job description.

:(

I miss the superhero who constantly reminds me that i am his princess..


:(

**depression mode**

YOU MAKE ME SMILE

Smile
Uncle Kracker



You're better then the best
I'm lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler than the flip side
Of my pillow, that's right

Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where
You send me, lets me know that it's okay
Yeah, it's okay
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed
Sing like bird, dizzy in my head
Spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night

You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile

Even when you're gone,
Somehow you come along just like
A flower pokin' through the sidewalk crack
And just like that
You steal away the rain, and just like that

You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed
Sing like bird, dizzy in my head
Spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night

You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile

Don't know how I lived without you
'Cause every time that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile

You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed
Sing like bird, dizzy in my head
Spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night

You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile
(Oh, you make me smile)
Oh, you make me smile
(Oh, you make me smile)
Oh, you make me smile

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but i'm crying now ...

If I could ask God one thing, it would be to stop the moon.

"If I could ask God one thing, it would be to stop the moon.
Stop the moon and make this night and your beauty last forever."
- A Knight's Tale

Happiness.
6o

SEQUEL

It's been ages since things kicked into high gear.

Hahaha. kidding aside..

Haven't been around lately. I mean .. i am always around, but sort of doing things with some slack. It's not easy finding the right words and letters and syllables to a feeling put with breathtaking candour.

Nah. Just pure gibberish.

I've been busy doin' the princess' scrapbook.

And i'm good.

Really.

I hope so.

I miss the superhero.