THANKFUL

Started the week right. Slept early the night before. I had a nice sleep. Woke up earlier this morning. Everything is nice and wonderful this morning. I am emitting happy bubbles :D tra-la la la la la

I was able to catch an enjoyable morning conversation with my dearest friends minnette, lorenz, and shawie. I love them all, they make my world a happier place to live in. hihihi. and of course, how will i ever miss my dearest friend dropping a line and tellin me to take care though he had a bad day at work? Thanks a lot. :) Hope everything turns out ok :D Ok? Again, I am emitting happy bubbles :D tra-la la la la la

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I was emitting happy bubbles when my heart was suddenly strucked by the site of a group of homeless beggars. This ain't peculiar these days, as you can catch a sight of them prowling the streets everywhere.

I then realize how nice my sleep had been. Lying in a soft bed, fanned with maximum intensity the electric fan blades could blow.... hellfire it was blowing though. nyahahah. But at least i really had a damn good sleep as compared to the nights i had before.
And while i was enjoyin' a comfortable rest of body, mind and spirit, on the other side of the bed were people spending their nights in decaying cartons and streets, and living their lives exposed to our daily commute between work and ... our comfortable beds :D

There are so many people here in our country who have nowhere to call home. Seeing the real face of poverty is a cinch for us, everywhere we can catch a glimpse of what it is like to be poor. Let's admit, the dream of success and a comfortable lifestyle does not extend to everyone.

But i believe that any one, with any motivation, would be able to work themselves out of a mess.

I am thankful that my parents have strived enough to provide a comfortable shelter for us. Though i must admit that there are holes in the roof that let the water drip inside come rainy days, (isalang na ang planggana kapag umuulan!! hehehe) i am still so very thankful that at night, we are able to sleep inside the walls and under a roof that secures us from the potential harms of the outside world. And i couldn't be thankful enough for a comfortable soft bed where i could plunge my body anytime i want to. A soft bed where my body rests with my eyes closed, my mind wanderin, my spirits soarin, and my soul travellin her way to dreamland....

tra-la la la la la la la la la la la

PERSONALITY TEST

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx


Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

It's been a rough day for me.

Sigh.

I just hope things would revert back to the same old days when things indeed make me smile.

:D

Goodnight my beloved :kiss:

DEPRESSED

I'm so

THIS IS WHAT I FEEL NOW

LEAVE RIGHT NOW
Will Young


I'm here, just like I said
Though it's breaking every rule I've ever made
My racing heart, is just the same;
Why make it strong to break it once again?
And I'd love to say "I do";
Give everything to you
But I could never now be true

So I say...
I think I better leave right now
Before I fall any deeper
I think I better leave right now
Feeling weaker and weaker
Somebody better show me how
Before I fall any deeper
I think I better leave right now

I'm here, so please explain
Why you're opening up a healing wound again
I'm a little more careful, perhaps it shows
But if I lose the highs at least I’m spared the lows
Now I tremble in your arms
What could be the harm?
To feel my spirit calm?

So I say...
I think I better leave right now
Before I fall any deeper
I think I better leave right now
Feeling weaker and weaker
Somebody better show me how
Before I fall any deeper
I think I better leave right now

I wouldn't know how to say
How good it feels seeing you today
I see you've got your smile back
Like you say - you're right on track
But you may never know why
Once bitten, twice as shy
If I'm proud, perhaps I should explain
I couldn't bear to loose you again

Yes, I will.
I think I better leave right now
Feeling weaker and weaker
Somebody better show me how
Before I fall any deeper...
I think I better leave right now

HIRAM

Binomba na naman ni gerald ang cellphone ko ng mga messages. At tulad ng mga nakaraan, isang teks na naman ang pumukaw sa aking diwa:

"wag mong bitawan ang bagay na di mo kayang makitang hinahawakan ng iba."

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Pero paano kung ang bagay na pilit mong hinahawakan mo ay hindi mo pag aari? Handa ka bang pakawalan ito at makita sa mga kamay ng tunay na nag mamay-ari?

Ayoko sanang pakawalan ang isang bagay na tanging nagpapaligaya sa kin. Pero kailangan. Lalo na't ito'y hiram lamang :(

FOR ALL WE KNOW


Love, look at the two of us
Strangers in many ways
We've got a lifetime to share
So much to say and as we go on
from day to day...

Ill feel you close to me
But time alone will tell
Lets take a lifetime to say
I knew you well
For only time will tell us so
And love may grow for all we know

Love, look at the two of us
Strangers in many ways
Let's take a lifetime to say
I know you well
But only time will tell us so
And love may grow
for all we know

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waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

Kinakalawang na ata ako. Mababad ba naman sa luha ang pagkatao. Sa halip na umapaw palabas ng mga mata... ano baga't sa loob dumaloy ang mga luha ko.

Ilang galon ba ng luha ang ibinuhos ko sa pagkatao ko? Minsan naisip ko, sana hinayaan ko na lng pumatak sa lupa. Hindi ko na pinigilan.

Mahirap talaga maging artista. Lalo na kung walang bayad. Ngumiti ka sa harap ng mga kaibigan mo, hindi ka nila babayaran sa pagpapanggap mo. Malay ba nila sa totoong nararamdaman mo. Humahalakhak ka naman ng todo. Ngumingiti ng halos abot hanggang tenga. Lumalamon na parang huling oras na sa mundo.

Kung pwede lang sana. Sinabi ko na noon pa.

Kapag unti-unti ng ginugupo ung katawan ko, gusto ko sumigaw ng malakas na malakas. Sige pa. Sige paaaaaaaaaaa. Hanggang sa sana...kunin mo na lng ako. Tapusin mo na ang mga paghihirap ko.

Pero naman ang mundo? Hindi ko pa nakikita ang araw sa pinakamataas na bahagi sa kalawakan. Hindi ko pa nakikita ang buwan, na lumiliwanag ng lubusan.

Kinakalawang.

Buhol-buhol na ang mga kadena ng isipan.

Bukas susubukan kong paagusin ang mga luha sa lupa.

(from its4fun)

STRANGERS AT ONE POINT, GOOD FRIENDS IN TIME.

NOBODY KNOWS HOW OUR WORLD WORKS. IT'S A MATTER OF TIME WHEN YOU TRULY APPRECIATE A PERSON. A MATTER OF FATE WHERE THE RIGHT PEOPLE ARE AT THE RIGHT TIME. NOBODY UNDERSTANDS HOW THE UNIVERSE CONSPIRES FOR US TO MEET THE PEOPLE WE'LL LOVE OR HAVE CONNECTIONS WITH. BUT THEN, IT JUST HAPPENS, YOU CLICK AND THE STORY BEGINS.

:think:

RETREAT ii

Just can't get enough of the painter Joey Velasco.

Here's another video..

Ang Lumang Paintbrush - The Old Paintbrush

RETREAT

Easter Sunday.

Let's take a peek at a canvas of society. Time to reflect.



This video really captured my heart.

How am i livin' my life to the fullest? How do i value myself?
How do i reach out to others?

I miss my college friends.
I reopened the time capsule that we made in our college retreat last Feb 2002. Yes, i have already opened it last April of 2007. Here's what was written on the paper inside it:

THREE MEMORABLE MEMENTOS IN LETRAN:
1. Engr. San Juan continued his lecture in Machine Design despite of the black-out.
2. Latecomers and bonuses in Engr. Liquido's Classes
3. Eating sessions in classes, the green peas and the munchers.
ETC: shopworks
tambay after Drawing II
Trip to MIRDC, CALACA
Jellie and I - tambay sa grass
Chapel standby
Seminar sa Coke
The Knight Family
The OSA Family
Knight ovenight
kopyahan sa exams
LMES (Letran Mechanical Engineering Society)
Kindat ni Joe pring
Intrams - Softball and Scrabble
Mark and Reymond - my bestfriends
Mario bebang
Forever grouping
ME-1 >>> THE BEST!

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five years from now, i want to see myself as a successful engineer earning enough to suffice me and my family's needs.

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dapat may HOUSE and LOT na ko!

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I have to own my own car siguro after another three years pa...

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sana ok na ung lovelife ko.. hehehe..db ysm?


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5 years lang naman pala un. sandali lang pala un. halos wala pa ko naacomplish sa mga nilagay ko dito due to some unavoidable circumstances. :sigh:

Anyways... moving forward still ...

Life is short. Make the most of it :)

UNLUCKY

Have you ever loved someone who just can't love you back?

Tragic isn't it.

Yet you still care.

Love.

Cherish.

Until the day comes that you no longer feel something special for that person.

And no one knows when that day would be.

You just wake up one morning and thank heavens it's over.

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Lucky are those who are being loved the same amount inspite of being unable to return the love the other person wishes to have.

Life's like that.

Love is blind.

Tsk tsk.

:WUB:

Sunday. Mah room i have cleaned. Disposed some trashes that occupied most of the spaces in my cabinet as Pacquiao gets so gorier punching Marquez.

Congrats to Manny. Pa ingles-ingles na naman sya :lmao:

Slept in the afternoon. Whooping 4hrs. ahhh. Sarap talaga.

Had it not for Ady's birthday party, i would have woke up at around 7pm :D or 730 :D (tawad pa half hour. nyahahah) Niweis, nice party we got. Lotsa food to munch on. Yummy was the Chocolate mouse este mousse :hyper: It's just that i couldn't splurge on it too much because my diet i have been watchin' :liar: (Thanks to doc joy and eric, iyen and jason , mayeth, and the bartdey boy ady. wi lab yu :kiss:)

Also .. ah mis yah sweety on a Sunday. [:kill: wifi signal]

Night: Ysm on YM. Said he was looking for me on my symbianize. An sms boyti sent me.. the latter i was informed. Got so furious. Niweis... maybe that's just the way it is :D Full of words a man he is. Actions he must have forgotten. Sigh. Maybe he just couldn't believe, feelings i no longer have for him :D

Ah miss mah kuya melvin. Missin him really. My sis do miss him too.

Work tomorrow, no symbianize, no oc, no ip. Disconnected to the outside world i am. Gotta work double time. Can't wait for thursday. Vacation til Sunday. Wheeww.

Meebo.. i need you tomorrow :D :mass: :pray:

:madslap: to lorenz. The headset i haven't used. Can't wait. :hyper:

:cry: ate kims :more: wednesday i wanna come :cry: til 4pm pls stay :D

Gotta sleep now. Sweety.. nice voice you really got. hahah. Gudnyt.

-sleep mode-

BACK I AM

Whoah.

Spent some time in hiatus :D I'm back :) No more reasons to elaborate why i haven't blogged for so long :) Basta...yun na un.

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1230am... awake i still am. Yeah.

Spank me sweety :weep:

I got stranded. :weep:

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130am. Gotta sleep. Nyt nyt.

COLDNESS FROM WITHIN

The night was so cold.

'twas not the temperature drop that's causing shivers to my soul...but the coldness i am feeling from within.

So depressed.

Felt like my life is so pedestrian.

Felt like being imprisoned with this malady. How could i ever get over this one, only a miracle would make it happen.

Last night..it too was hard for me to contain my emotions. Felt like needing some ears that would listen to me, shoulders that would let me lean on.. dunno. I was buzzing hard to a friend, someone i knew would understand me, would somehow stabilize the stupidity in me, and would be able to crack even just a chuckle in me. My fingers almost trembled buzzing at him. But offline he was.

Morning came. Trance i am still in.

Riding in a jeepney on my way to work, I chanced upon a lover, a girl and a lesbian. Their hands were tightly clasped. It might have been the seriousness with which they both spoke or the earnestness of each other's gaze,
they look perfectly fit for each other, they were emitting love bubbles. Never the mind the ones cursing them behind their backs.

I seemed almost cavalier with my confidence.

When was the last time i had my hands tightly clasped
in someone else's?

Uhh. The soonest my memory can serve me is an afternoon i have shared over a Sundae Mcdo and a cute brown teddy somewhere in the north before i went back to south in that same afternoon.

Sigh.

PHOTO ESSAY

PHOTO ESSAY
swiped from Marg


- answer the questions below
- do a google image search with your answer
- take a picture from the first page of results
- don't copy the answers of the person who posted this before you

1. the age you'll be on your next birthday

2. a place you'd like to travel


3. your favorite place

4. your favorite food

5. your favorite animal


6. your favorite color


7. first name of your significant other or crush


8. the town in which you live in:


9. your first job


10. a bad habit you have:


11. your worst fear

I could never understand how hard it is to lose something i never had ...

But then..i have to let go to see if there's anything worth holding on to ...

"Don't hold too long to what's never meant to be ...sometimes ... we need to set things free before it hurt us so badly..."

got mah hair trimmed last saturday :D
parang ala nangyari :D
lols.

KICK ME!

Didn't get enough sleep. Dunno what i was thinking. Or dunno who the hell was thinking about me. hahaha. Crap.

And now im so sleepy here at work. I want a caffeine injection for a kick. Or maybe a real kick. Whoah.

Maybe a round of Patapon will do. Maybe. Just maybe.

(pata pata pata pon... pon pon pata pon.. chaka chaka pata pon.. don dondon dondon..)

**Yawns**

Sloppy me.

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I was able to beat the shit in me.
Congratulate me.

:clap::clap::clap:

PATAPON

Sigh. I have fever. Yes. Fever.

PATAPON FEVER!!!!

fever!!!!

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I am definitely into it. Addicted.

I first heard of PATAPON when Sandwich20m asked me if i have already played it on my psp. With him having crowned as one of the AZ kings in www.symbianize.com ... i first thought it was some sort of a voyeuristic game intended for eerrr...uuhhmmnn...
adults only :D My thoughts then were even buoyed up when Sandwich20m told me that Jovrea27 was the one who encouraged him to play it. Hmmnn. King of Adult Zones on PATAPONS :think: Nyahahaha. Must be really some kind of... uhhh..oohhhh... :lmao:

I could also recall how Hoe311 noted in one of his shouts that the game PATAPON rocks. :think: With hoe311 (famous for his cp themes) getting hooked on PATAPON... i realized this isnt some kind of voyeur thing :D (Sometimes i just have to trust Sandwich20m that everything isn't about adult zones. nyahahahah. peace tayo tatang :peace: )

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I installed the game PATAPON on my psp.. and..tell you.. this visually striking rhythm-based fighting game really rocks!!!

And what this game is all about?

I am the Mighty Patapon, the "God", and i must lead my Patapons into a battle, not with an armalite, sword, spear, guns, etc... but with a drum, to which i will pound on a beat, that will give directions to my Patapons. I must bring back our former glory, against the Zigatons, our nemesis.

This rhythm-based strategy game may sound so easy... but tell you.. it's not. The pounding on the console's controls determines the actions on the game. The aim is to lead the army to victory up to the shrine at the end by hammering out tribal chants through varied control combinations that command different moves for the Patapons : move, forward, attack, defend. 10 combos will put the patapons in a fever, to which when into a state of fever, will make them more powerful.

What makes this game so exciting is that miracles can be performed to make it rain so that the lava can be put up just in time for the Patapons to be able to cross hot deserts. The ability of the tree of life to give birth for troop build ups really amazes me, but just like other games, you have to trade in something for these eyeball-shaped creatures like the items that you have picked-up on a mission or the ka chings (money) that you have collected. (No show-me-the-money-cheat here..haha) There's also a kicker in the home menu, on the left side, a short-time with a little fella (nyahahah) who plays a trumpet to stop a tree’s head itching so he then gives you something else... BUT ..oh yes..there's a BUT... you have to offer gifts for this fella before he does his "thing" (even short time doesn't come free as well..hahahah). You also have to choose the troops and equip them with the correct armour, shield and weapons before deploying them out on a mission, and this entails a lot of strategy.

Just as what i have read in a review:
Patapon : "A funky visual vibe mashed up with a unique, rhythm based control scheme equals a bona fide hit for the PSP"

And it really hit me.

My mind just can't get over that Juju thing. Even in my pre-occupied hours, my mind keeps on drumming to the beat of those one-eyed tribal warriors.

CERTIFIED PATAPON ADDICT!!!

And must i say i am not alone in this fever. Most of my symbianize friends are into it also... with swarming patapon avatars and signatures and themes and chats in our forum. FEVER!!!!!

FEVER!!!!!

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In tagalog, "PATAPON" means junk, worthless, low-quality, sub-standard, not chosen.... and uuhhmmm... others of that ilk. I really cannot find the words to define the tagalog term exactly... but it is usually coined as a negative one.

The birth of this new stomp-beat-forward-fight game has put the term PATAPON in a new dimension. By now, this means junk entry no more, Patapon has really captured the hearts of all ages.

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And my oh my, i almost forgot my career in Need for Speed.