Everything

"How can i stand here with you and not be moved by you..
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?"

Waaaaaaaaaaaa......

Reminds me of you-know-who.
I'm really missin' you a lot. sigh.
Do you still remember when you asked me to check this song?

"How can i stand here with you and not be moved by you..
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?"

Sigh.

HIATUS

I won't be around this Friday, Saturday, Sunday. I am taking a break from my tedious and stressful life here in the forging company.

:D


I received an email from Ms. Joy Samson, the Student Activities Assistant from the Office of the Students Affairs in my Colegio...

"With the theme “Isang Dekada ng Pagpapanday!, the Student Development Services Department (SDSD) through the Office of the Student Affairs (OSA) is holding the PANDAYAN 10, a Leadership and Team Building Seminar for Student Leaders. The event is a collaborative project with the Philippine Association of Administrators of Student Affairs (PAASA).

It will be a three-day summer camp which will be held on April 11-13, 2008 at Colegio de San Juan de Letran – Calamba in Calamba City. At the end of the training-seminar, the participants should be able to:

1. learn the basic concepts of leadership / team building through different learning experiences, games and other group activities
2. appreciate the importance of camaraderie as a stepping stone towards the achievement of their individual and organizational goals in an atmosphere of fun and togetherness
3. prepare themselves for their leadership responsibilities as groups and as individuals by tapping their own experiences and insights as learning materials


" Being one of the former participants of Pandayan and one of the active and responsible student leaders during your college years, we wish to invite you to be one of the facilitators of Pandayan 10. This event will be participated not only by Letran-Calamba student leaders but also student leaders from different colleges and universities from Region IV A&B. Since this will be a big event, we would like to seek your assistance to support us and make this much awaited event a success. Attached is the proposed program of the event."

PANDAYAN 10
Leadership and Team Building Seminar for Student Leaders
April 11 to 13, 2008
Colegio de San Juan de Letran-Calamba, City of Calamba, Laguna

THEME: “Isang Dekada ng Pagpapanday!”


DAY 1 - APRIL 11 (FRIDAY)
KRA 1
Team Building – Leader as a Team Member
“Leader is a reflection of his team member and team member is a reflection of his leader.”

7:00 – 8:00 am Registration
8:00 – 10:00 Opening Ceremonies
Welcome Remarks Rector-President, Letran-Calamba
Messages Laguna Governor
Laguna Vice Governor
Representative, 2nd District of Laguna
City Mayor
Keynote Address TBA
10:00 - 10:30 Snacks
10:30 – 12:00 Orientation / Leveling of Expectations
Formation of Groups
Structured Learning Experience 1
12:00 – 1:00 pm Lunch
1:00 – 2:30 Structured Learning Experience 2
2:30 – 3:00 Snacks
3:00 – 4:30 Structured Learning Experience 3
4:30 – 6:00 Structured Learning Experience 4
6:00 – 7:00 Dinner

KRA 2
Organizational Management – Leader as Planner
“When to lead is as important as what to do and where to go.”

7:00 – 8:00 Plenary Session
8:00 – 10:00 Preparation of Resolution
10:00 Lights out

DAY 2 – APRIL 12 (SATURDAY)
KRA 3
Co-curricular Activities – Leader as Learner
“It is the capacity to develop and improve oneself which distinguish leaders from their followers.”

5:00 – 6:00 am Wake up Call
7:00 – 8:00 Breakfast
8:00 – 9:00 Plenary Session


9:00 – 12:000 10 Simultaneous Seminar-Workshop (working break)
Project Management
Basic Parliamentary Rules and Procedures
Writing Effective Letters / Memo
Effective Budget / Fund Management
Project Marketing
Public Speaking
Group Facilitation
Conflict Management / Negotiation Skills
Basic First Aid
Computer Layouting / Desktop Publishing
12:00 – 1:00 pm Lunch

KRA 4
Institutional Involvement – Leader as Influencer
“The very essence of all power to influence lies in getting other person to participate.”

1:00 – 6:00 Cheering Competition
PandayanLympics
Other outdoor activities:
Rappelling / Wall Climbing / Paint Ball Challenge
6:00 – 7:00 Dinner

KRA 5
Dominican Empowerment – Leader as Empowerer
“Leader shares a part of himself to bring out another person best of their individuality.”

7:00 – 10:00 Search for Mr. & Ms. Pandayan 10
Gawad Pandayan
Arriba JAM (Youth Concert)
10:00 Lights out

DAY 3 – APRIL 13 (SUNDAY)
KRA 6
Community Service – Leader as Servant
“When you become a leader, you lose the right to think about yourself.”

5:00 – 6:00 am Wake up Call
6:00 – 7:00 Breakfast
7:00 – 8:00 Travel to Gawad Kalinga (Majada In)
8:00 – 11:00 Gawad Kalinga Bayani Challenge
11:00 – 12:00 Travel to Letran
12:00 – 1:00 pm Lunch
1:00 – 2:30 Closing Ceremonies
2:30 – 3:30 Mass
3:30 Snacks
Home Sweet Home


***********************

A three-day worthwhile summer camp where different skills will be honed up.

Kinda bit excited.

There are battles that i choose to fight alone.

TRANSITIONS

Tuesday.

I reported already to my new boss .. take two. The first one i did about more than a month ago when the new organizational chart was poked in my eyes. Unluckily, the engineering department will lack in manpower should i be transferred immediately to the new section, so "they" have agreed to "indefinitely" extend my service to the department until the newly-hired engineers arrive. Unfortunately, up to this moment, there has been none. Sigh. I don't know why the vacancies haven't been filled up.. Is the compensation not enough? Are the qualifications too exxagerated? Or is the company really cursed?

And so i've made my mighty effort to know what has been going on with my career here. I approached the engineering head and asked him when and where the lateral transfer would really push through. (Lateral transfer: No salary increase, no promotion whatsoever, just addition of work and transfer of boss and office ) From Design Engineering to Cost Management. Whew. Sounds a tad complicated :D. The boss said Tuesday. And this is the day. This is it.

Baffler: New Organizational Chart was effective March 7, 2008. Our human Resource Department records
still has me under Engineering Department. How stupe could they be. Grrr.


If i'd tell you how my career has been groping badly with all the transitions going on, (and without them telling me of course), you'll understand why i would plotz with joy the day my job description would really be defined. Most of the times, i feel like a ball being thrown to where i would be of great use. If such is the case, how utilitarian could it be. I am serving three bosses, i mean really big bosses all at a time: engineering department's assistant manager, the plant manager and the president of the company.

The engineering department's assistant manager, who always arrives at a time most convenient to him, say 11am. (Inset: work starts at 7am) After having gone through the tremors of three consecutive resignations of the key players in his department, i could almost sense that he also wanted to quit. Left to serve in his department were three engineers: Two of them is sick of absenteeism and hindi-mo-ako-pwedeng-utusan-basta-basta, and i, the only rose among the thorns, is sick of boredom and laziness. So you can just imagine how hard it is for the boss to propel his department towards achieving high productivity.


Though admittedly, i can sense that he can sense my boredom at my work, he always relies to me because i think that he thinks i am his secretary. (Ang gulo..weheheh. Tongue twister?) Not really, it is because he has no choice, i am the only engineer available. Absent palagi ung dalawa. duh. Maybe it is also because im the only one left who still obeys his orders. Most of the times, i want to condemn him to an eternity of torment whenever i am asked to do things in his behalf, just because...he is also absent. :lmao: He has even passed down to me some of the jobs of those who resigned, like those new jobs for development for the new toyota R-type transmission. Now that i am being pulled out in his army, i can understand why he has become that adamant in a decision that was agreed upon by the top management.

The other boss that plunges me into the realm of uncertainty is the plant manager. Just because he is the plant manager, he can always ask orders to anyone below his rank. And the fact that he will be my new boss has given him the best authority to ask me to do soooooooooo many things in his behalf.

The memory is still fresh five years ago when i was just taking a shot in a post here. I knew the plant manager doesn't want to hire me. How did i know? The HR manager then told me. He doesn't believe that my capabilities as a lady engineer would do well to the company. He says a lady engineer couldn't even lift a five-kilogram metal forging. How would i be able to perform the job fully? What the HR Manager then did was to indicate that i will be deployed in QA department instead of the Engineering Department. So during the course of training, the assistant manager of QA was the one who prepared the module. But come end of training, the engineering assistant manager insisted that i will be joining his department. So contract signed: junior design engineer :D Weeeeeeeee.

What transpired in those five years was that this plant manager has tasked me to do sooooo many things which are beyond my duties as a design engineer. Archiving of events, monitoring boards, fair and exhibits and other functions outside of the company. (Some are even personal stuffs like school projects of his daughters..hehe) Of course, i can never complain. He is the plant manager. And now that i am under his umbrella, i just hope that the things that i did in the past years had him believe that i can do better than what he was thinking of me back then.

And the last is the really big big boss, the Company president. I don't know what went through his mind, but he just chose me to be his representative in the Toyota Suppliers' Club working committee. And to say this is just a mere representation is an understatement.
Hell to the club, i could have been paid for just working there as a committee. There are gazillions of works to be done, which kind of reiterated in my regular work here in the company.
Even harder because my performance in the committee would reflect that of the president's. If not for the kindred spirits of my co-working committees, i really would have let the president throw fires of hell to me by not performing my responsibilities in the TSC.

Yeah. I know i am underpaid. Not well-compensated. And it's my fault. Because i choose to stay. I can always leave the company whenever i want to.But i choose to work and work and work. I have convinced myself to stop complaining about the things that i have no control of.

I wonder if my five-year work experience here will slake the hunger and thirst for my career and professional growth. Maybe it won't. And if such is the case, what is next to me?

Im just tryin to give myself a reason, for being around.

I've always love to read Chris' blogs... and somehow, in the middle of my stupid recess, my eyes got poked by this song...

If I was in the fridge, would you open the door?
If I was the grass, would you mow your lawn?
If I was your body, would you still wear clothes?
If I was a booger, would you blow your nose?
Would you keep it? would you eat it?
Im just tryin to give myself a reason, for being around.

If I was the front porch swing would you let me hang?
If I was the dance floor would you shake your thing?
If I was a rubber check would you let me bounce
Up and down inside your bank account?
Would ya trust me, not to break you?
Im just tryin really hard to make you,
Notice me being around.

If I was a haircut would you wear a hat?
If I was a maid, could I clean your flat?
If I was the carpet would ya wipe your feet,
In time to save me from mud off the street?
If you like me, if you love me,
Why dont you get down on your knees
And scrub me?
Im a little grubby
From being around.

I actually do not know the song. bwahahaha.

I'm just tryin to give myself a reason, for being around. Yeah. Really.

And i guess.. i must end it now.

I just want to stop being around.

I'm sick and tired of it.

REMINDER

I asked God.

I asked God to take away my habit,
God said 'No', it is not for me to take it away,
but for you to give it up.

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole,
God said 'No', his spirit is whole,
but his body is temporary.

I asked God to grant me patience,
God said 'No', it is a by product of tribulations,
It is not granted, it is learned.

I asked God to give me happiness,
God said 'No', I give blessings,
Happiness is up to you.

I asked God to spare me pain,
God said 'No', sufferings draw you apart from
Worldly cares and brings you closer to me.

I asked God to make my spirit grow,
God said 'No', you must grow on your own,
but I will prune you to make you fruitful.

I asked God for all things that I might enjoy life;
God said 'No', I will give you life,
So that you may enjoy all things.

I asked God to help me - love others as much as He loves me,
God said - Ahhhh..........
Finally you have the idea,
this day is yours, don't throw it away.

***********

found this on my files.... must have been kept for years ..

why do i always have to be reminded.. tsk tsk...

It has never been a question of who forgets, but sometimes, there's a definite PAIN on being the one who remembers everything...

mahal mo na ba?

USAPANG MEDYAS

usapang medyas
^
^
.
..
....

hindi makita ni boyti ang kapares ng medyas nya.
ako naman...hindi magkapares ang suot na medyas.
nyahaha.
eto ang ebidensya....

THANKFUL

Started the week right. Slept early the night before. I had a nice sleep. Woke up earlier this morning. Everything is nice and wonderful this morning. I am emitting happy bubbles :D tra-la la la la la

I was able to catch an enjoyable morning conversation with my dearest friends minnette, lorenz, and shawie. I love them all, they make my world a happier place to live in. hihihi. and of course, how will i ever miss my dearest friend dropping a line and tellin me to take care though he had a bad day at work? Thanks a lot. :) Hope everything turns out ok :D Ok? Again, I am emitting happy bubbles :D tra-la la la la la

*************

I was emitting happy bubbles when my heart was suddenly strucked by the site of a group of homeless beggars. This ain't peculiar these days, as you can catch a sight of them prowling the streets everywhere.

I then realize how nice my sleep had been. Lying in a soft bed, fanned with maximum intensity the electric fan blades could blow.... hellfire it was blowing though. nyahahah. But at least i really had a damn good sleep as compared to the nights i had before.
And while i was enjoyin' a comfortable rest of body, mind and spirit, on the other side of the bed were people spending their nights in decaying cartons and streets, and living their lives exposed to our daily commute between work and ... our comfortable beds :D

There are so many people here in our country who have nowhere to call home. Seeing the real face of poverty is a cinch for us, everywhere we can catch a glimpse of what it is like to be poor. Let's admit, the dream of success and a comfortable lifestyle does not extend to everyone.

But i believe that any one, with any motivation, would be able to work themselves out of a mess.

I am thankful that my parents have strived enough to provide a comfortable shelter for us. Though i must admit that there are holes in the roof that let the water drip inside come rainy days, (isalang na ang planggana kapag umuulan!! hehehe) i am still so very thankful that at night, we are able to sleep inside the walls and under a roof that secures us from the potential harms of the outside world. And i couldn't be thankful enough for a comfortable soft bed where i could plunge my body anytime i want to. A soft bed where my body rests with my eyes closed, my mind wanderin, my spirits soarin, and my soul travellin her way to dreamland....

tra-la la la la la la la la la la la

PERSONALITY TEST

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx


Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

It's been a rough day for me.

Sigh.

I just hope things would revert back to the same old days when things indeed make me smile.

:D

Goodnight my beloved :kiss:

DEPRESSED

I'm so

THIS IS WHAT I FEEL NOW

LEAVE RIGHT NOW
Will Young


I'm here, just like I said
Though it's breaking every rule I've ever made
My racing heart, is just the same;
Why make it strong to break it once again?
And I'd love to say "I do";
Give everything to you
But I could never now be true

So I say...
I think I better leave right now
Before I fall any deeper
I think I better leave right now
Feeling weaker and weaker
Somebody better show me how
Before I fall any deeper
I think I better leave right now

I'm here, so please explain
Why you're opening up a healing wound again
I'm a little more careful, perhaps it shows
But if I lose the highs at least I’m spared the lows
Now I tremble in your arms
What could be the harm?
To feel my spirit calm?

So I say...
I think I better leave right now
Before I fall any deeper
I think I better leave right now
Feeling weaker and weaker
Somebody better show me how
Before I fall any deeper
I think I better leave right now

I wouldn't know how to say
How good it feels seeing you today
I see you've got your smile back
Like you say - you're right on track
But you may never know why
Once bitten, twice as shy
If I'm proud, perhaps I should explain
I couldn't bear to loose you again

Yes, I will.
I think I better leave right now
Feeling weaker and weaker
Somebody better show me how
Before I fall any deeper...
I think I better leave right now

HIRAM

Binomba na naman ni gerald ang cellphone ko ng mga messages. At tulad ng mga nakaraan, isang teks na naman ang pumukaw sa aking diwa:

"wag mong bitawan ang bagay na di mo kayang makitang hinahawakan ng iba."

***************

Pero paano kung ang bagay na pilit mong hinahawakan mo ay hindi mo pag aari? Handa ka bang pakawalan ito at makita sa mga kamay ng tunay na nag mamay-ari?

Ayoko sanang pakawalan ang isang bagay na tanging nagpapaligaya sa kin. Pero kailangan. Lalo na't ito'y hiram lamang :(

FOR ALL WE KNOW


Love, look at the two of us
Strangers in many ways
We've got a lifetime to share
So much to say and as we go on
from day to day...

Ill feel you close to me
But time alone will tell
Lets take a lifetime to say
I knew you well
For only time will tell us so
And love may grow for all we know

Love, look at the two of us
Strangers in many ways
Let's take a lifetime to say
I know you well
But only time will tell us so
And love may grow
for all we know

***********

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

Kinakalawang na ata ako. Mababad ba naman sa luha ang pagkatao. Sa halip na umapaw palabas ng mga mata... ano baga't sa loob dumaloy ang mga luha ko.

Ilang galon ba ng luha ang ibinuhos ko sa pagkatao ko? Minsan naisip ko, sana hinayaan ko na lng pumatak sa lupa. Hindi ko na pinigilan.

Mahirap talaga maging artista. Lalo na kung walang bayad. Ngumiti ka sa harap ng mga kaibigan mo, hindi ka nila babayaran sa pagpapanggap mo. Malay ba nila sa totoong nararamdaman mo. Humahalakhak ka naman ng todo. Ngumingiti ng halos abot hanggang tenga. Lumalamon na parang huling oras na sa mundo.

Kung pwede lang sana. Sinabi ko na noon pa.

Kapag unti-unti ng ginugupo ung katawan ko, gusto ko sumigaw ng malakas na malakas. Sige pa. Sige paaaaaaaaaaa. Hanggang sa sana...kunin mo na lng ako. Tapusin mo na ang mga paghihirap ko.

Pero naman ang mundo? Hindi ko pa nakikita ang araw sa pinakamataas na bahagi sa kalawakan. Hindi ko pa nakikita ang buwan, na lumiliwanag ng lubusan.

Kinakalawang.

Buhol-buhol na ang mga kadena ng isipan.

Bukas susubukan kong paagusin ang mga luha sa lupa.

(from its4fun)

STRANGERS AT ONE POINT, GOOD FRIENDS IN TIME.

NOBODY KNOWS HOW OUR WORLD WORKS. IT'S A MATTER OF TIME WHEN YOU TRULY APPRECIATE A PERSON. A MATTER OF FATE WHERE THE RIGHT PEOPLE ARE AT THE RIGHT TIME. NOBODY UNDERSTANDS HOW THE UNIVERSE CONSPIRES FOR US TO MEET THE PEOPLE WE'LL LOVE OR HAVE CONNECTIONS WITH. BUT THEN, IT JUST HAPPENS, YOU CLICK AND THE STORY BEGINS.

:think:

RETREAT ii

Just can't get enough of the painter Joey Velasco.

Here's another video..

Ang Lumang Paintbrush - The Old Paintbrush