DEAR WORK

Dear work, I’m back. Please don’t be so cruel.

HIGHER

higher at underground ^_^

OFF

Off to an island.

Catch yah on Sunday.

frustrated

I am holding a pity party.

My frustrations are right now in the fore.

It's too frustrating to belong to an organization that lacks the drive for more improvement. To have a superior that doesn't even act like one, lacks management skills to push the group into higher grounds. I just do not know how to get over this thing. I am so doomed i just want to go home and get an even more relaxed sleep. My head aches, pounding the hell in my now addled brain.

I do not know where to find my sanity, i must have lost it somewhere. While i am physically present laboring harder at the forging plant, my mind travels somewhere to find comfort, peace and serenity.. but all to no avail.

I wish to unclutter my mind.

I hope the coming days off from work would somehow help me regain my sanity.

Because I am as dead as a dodo.

ON AGING

The late General Douglas MacArthur wrote something very profound about aging on his 75th birthday:

In the central place of every heart there is a recording chamber; so long as it receives messages of beauty, hope, cheer, and courage, so long are you young. When the wires are all down and your heart is covered with the snows of pessimism and the ice of cynicism, then, and then only are you grown old.

BIG 30

this is how you spell depression.


niweis, happy birthday D.

i miss you big big big time.

KUMPLEANYO

Maligayang kumpleanyo superhero!

Ngayon ba o bukas?

:D

nangungulila

Sa tatlong oras na tulog ko, nakuha mo pang dumaan sa panaginip ko para sagipin ako sa matinding pangungulila.

Saif.

:'(

painful

Yesterday had been a painful one, a physical struggle of comfort. I had a painful thigh, to which i suspect must be due to the muscle stress i have incurred right after i took swimming last weekend during sunset. The pain had been synchronized upward to my head, it felt really damn heavy and it was as if my head would explode.

"I am bound to endure pain." I say to myself.

Twelve hours of labor with painful thigh and aching head is such an exhausting task. To kill the receptors of pain so i could no longer feel the interruptions in my system is as easy as swallowing a pill, but the unfortunate me isn't allowed to take any.

Murphy's law had me on my way home when i was stuck in traffic. Frankly, i didn't know how the hell i got home safely, i was battling with my sanity as i feed on the pounding inside my head.

I slept the night away with the continued suffering in my thigh and head. While praying for comfort for the next day, i ask God to take away not only the physical pain i was bearing, but also the emotional wounds i am still trying to heal.

BACK TO BACK

My feet are back on the pedals, hands on the steering wheel.
More so, my finger is back on the shutter.

Good morning monday!

ARAW NG KAGITINGAN

Magiting ang mga empleyadong nagtatrabaho ngayong araw na ito.

Ehem.

:->

kung pwede lang sana

Gutom na gutom at pagod na pagod kami ng kaibigan ko galing sa trabaho kagabi kaya naisipan namin na dumaan muna ng KFC at kumain ng kung anumang makakain doon. Umorder ako ng fish twister samantalang naisipan nyang lantakan ang 2-piece hot and crispy chicken meal.Bago pa man sya sumubo ay naisipan nya akong alukin ng manok kahit na alam nyang hindi naman ako kumakain nito. Humiwa ng maliit na parte ng manok, tinusok ng tinidor, sabay iniabot sa kin at sinabing, "tikman mo na, kahit konti lang, para mas exciting."

Sa puntong iyon, bigla na lang ako natigilan at tulad ng pang araw-araw na panlalaban ko sa tawag ng nakaraan, pinilit kong iwaksi sa isip ko ang kung ano mang nagpupumilit umibabaw ng oras na iyon. Pero hindi ko pa rin napigilan at hinayaan ko na lang na maglakbay ako sa masasayang alaala ng nakaraan: isang order ng 2-piece chickenjoy para sa kanya at isang burger steak naman sa akin. Pipira-pirasuhin nya ung isang chicken, ilalagay sa plato ko, at minsan pa ay tutusukin ng tinidor para isubo sa akin.

Ang babaw lang ng kaligayahan ko, masaya na ako sa simpleng pagkaing pinagsasaluhan namin, hindi sa sarap ng pagkaing nakahain, kundi sa sarap ng pagsasama at pag aalaga nya sa kin. At sa tuwing maaalala ko ito, hindi ko pa din maiwasang mapangiti, na ang kasunod naman ay mga patagong hikbi.

Nakakainis na chicken. Gustong gusto ko tuloy magteleport papunta sa tabi nya.

Kung pwede lang sana.

WTF.

TELEPORT

paano ba mag teleport papunta sa piling mo?
:'(

PENITENSYA

040611 5:48AM

ang aga naman nito. pero napabilib nila ko sa mahigpit na pag yakap nila sa kanilang paniniwala.

be wary

My morning isn't great.

So i was controlled by my anger and apathy to joven, our staff, who resisted the task that the boss had assigned me to give to him. Deym. The bastard is getting his head all sized up indeed. Well, i need to get out of here quickly, before i completely loose myself in the process of getting things in order.

Well, be wary indeed, i'll get back on you in a jiffy.

ciao

It's so depressing to see and hear my office mate Rene bad mouthing offensive words on a Monday morning knowing twenty-hours hadn’t even passed after he had served the church.

It's not enough that you are serving the church every Sunday as a lay minister. It's how you live the Christian way that you truly serve the Lord.

So i'm am staying away from negative people on a good Monday morning.

Ciao.

It's a great saturday morning. Blessings are pouring in.

It's a great saturday morning. Blessings are pouring in.

Thank You Lord for the nice and sunny morning.
Thank you for bonuses, CBA and the dividends.
Thank you for the bull market.
Thank you so much.

ENVIOUS

susie: mare baka gusto mo magtyangge samahan kita
princess: nako pass ako...wala na ako pera
Susie: ikaw nmn ang taong laging wlang pera pero wla rin tigil ang gastos :D
princess: lol
Susie: hndi kapanipaniwala e :D
princess: judgemental ka na mare ha
princess: jinajudge mo na ko = hahahaha
Susie: anyway, ganun tlg :D
princess: lakas trip mo din e )
Susie: ahahahah
Susie: ang judgement ko ay tru what i see & observe.. :D
princess: cge na isipin mo na at i judge lahat ng gusto mong isipin )
princess: its a free country
princess: hindi ko alam kung bat ka nagsasalita ng ganyan sa kin mare... wala naman ako ginagawang masama.. pero kung hhusgahan mo pati ang personal na paggastos ko ay wala ka na dun pakialam kse buhay ko naman ito
princess: kaya isipin mo na lahat ng gusto mo isipin
Susie: parang galit na galit ka na jan.. hndi ko nmn un pinakikialama a.. & tama ka, wl nmn tlg akong pikialam dun.. para ngbbiro lng akong mgchangge e.. lumayo na to.
Susie: sorry kung ikinagalit mo
Susie: kalimutan mo n un
Susie: hndi n kita yayayain mgchangge :D
Susie: pasensya na

I have one adjective for you.

ENVIOUS.

i pity you dear. i don't know why you allow yourself to succumb to envy, of seeing others have a better financial status than yours. i pity you as you stalk to my whereabouts, how much i spent for this and that, and how much i shell out for eating this and that. such a looser.

why don't you just mind your own life, and think of better ways to pull yourself out of that financial muck.

Leave me alone and get a life.

'Coz you seem to be loosing one.

:)

PS. I don't owe you my life's financial statement. You f*ck!n @ssh0l3.

SERIOUSLY

My Japanese boss had relocated to the table beside me. To the right of me now sits hell, working hours meant inhaling his cigarette-flavored breath. If only I could kill myself.

In between relocation and his bad breath, is the greatest disturbance on earth, as he could now conveniently butt through my critical thinking times, gathering greatest universal forces of insanity converged in the minor intersection between us.

Seriously, this is hell.

BOTTLED EMOTIONS

http://seewhatyousee.tumblr.com/post/4082433017

(from ate kimi)

EARTH HOUR

Proud to have participated
^_^

My human capacity for words utterly failed

I sat in solitude at the bench outside. The cold wind in a summer is flirtatiously taking me to a moment in the theater of my life, intermittently whirling through me as i ponder on the small pieces of my daily puzzle. I sat under the dark canvass, illuminated by the scatter of glowing stars, and the pulsations of my imagination were immediately triggered.

Time stood still. Not a word spoken.

My human capacity for words had utterly failed.

breakfast meal

breakfast meal by toyo

^_^

D

i just can't get you out of my mind saif.

It’s hard to sleep well if you know the details.

To see one’s world with open eyes is to see its dark and destructive side.
And to be frustrated by an inability to mitigate pain and sorrow.
When I consider the news of the day I often feel a sense of anguish.
I’m not directly responsible for what’s happening.
I can’t do anything about it.
But still, I know.
And take what I know into the darkness of night with me.
There’s good reason to clinch one’s jaw, grind and gnash one’s teeth.
I don’t know about the afterlife, but there is hell enough on earth.
It’s hard to sleep well if you know the details.

-Robert Fulghum

BUSY AND SLEEPY

Because workin’ my ass off is a must.

The God of somnolence ushered me to dreamland a bit late last night.

The God of somnolence ushered me to dreamland a bit late last night.

I was stuck in the indelible markers of my collective memory. I run inside myself and hide in the emergency room of my mind as remnants of him scatter like a flock of disturbed chickens, i could just look around and ponder with my neurotic exophthalmic eyes like an alert insect.

I'm not sure if the trip i took down the memory lane has triggered the insomnia in me.

I was browsing through our threads hours ago just to shimmer myself with sappy thoughts of yesterday. I never considered remembering him a taboo, as opposed to what most of my friends would say. It still delights that i am awed by his wit and humor, before laying before me his closely held dogmas. I was equally amused because it seems so ridiculous that even in his absence, he could provide me with such pleasure and launch me in a moment of good mood. Having a good memory is the best possession indeed.

I was put into a jolt when some of the lines he dropped rang a bell in the raw meat between my ears. Talk about dogma, thoughts blip through my head like moving banners under the screen of reality. How could i not notice it then? How could i be so ignorant? There must really be a kernel of reality to flavor the mix.

The spark started to turn into conflagration, and the speed to which i could process has jacked up a few more notches. My mind began to be cluttered and unfocused. Blurred distinctions, and i know pain isn't far away. Imminent disturbance slowly sets itself.

I always get too absorbed relishing my remaining days by looking back.

:)

Daryo

Buti na lang may isang toyo na hindi nagsasawang makinig sa aking mga kwentong daryo. :)

Salamat sa mga tengang laging nakabukas.

Pagbigyan mo na ang isang prinsesang nangungulila

:)

android

my pistachio-flavored gelato looks like an android

STOP POLLUTION

Monday morning was tainted by a shuttle bus spewing dark smoke.

Tsk. tsk. Poor mother earth.

Let's all act to save our planet.

NOW

lunatic

they say you are nothing unusual last night. same old silly you. but to me, every night is a date, every night is special, my supermoon. 031911.

FAREWELL KITLENS

Yep. CDSC ruined my 18-55.
Now I need a new glass.

to CDSC, here's to you.

ASAP

The results are out.

I got it yesterday and i scored well enough to have my life at least a bit extended.

More than half a year of sacrifice has gotten me a bountiful harvest of improved health. Though i could still feel the prick and whip of having an uninvited and unwanted entity in my being, i am all the more positive that the day will come when all of them would decide to leave.

But could you please all hurry?

Leave me.

ASAP.

RETENTION

There’s so much about yesterday that I’d like to be reminded day by day.

One last look

Dear moon,

I have to spend a few minutes of my time with you just before i tuck myself under the sheets. Tomorrow, the world will be watching the super you.

Oh supermoon.

I cant resist not having a quickie date with you. You are up there ever so gleaming, i wonder why i stare at you with so much melancholy within.

The last time i took so much joy with your light was a quarter you overseeing two hearts with one soul sipping a cup of hot french vanilla.

And i wonder if, at any rate, the hands of time would bring me back to those arms, while i cherish the night i would have you over us.

Before i sleep, lemme stare at your beauty. And let him know that i am just here, just here, here, always.

No goodbyes.

SUICIDAL

So our Japanese boss is suicidal?

lol.

GTH.

IT'S A DATE

03102011

I call it a DATE.

Who else would i have one with if not with my sweetie?

I miss you D.

Much.

McLunch

Yumyum

C-R-A-P

I'm still getting the hang of my bothering Tuesday. Oh well, hell has been a step away from me since yesterday. Red alarms flickering around and i know i'm into a real deep $h!t.

I just dropped the possibility that my cousin would still be able to overcome the $h!t in him. Well, instead of him professing all the deliquencies he could and put a blotch on my ever so dearest escutcheon here at work, he just decided to walk away. I also opted to let him do whatever crap he wants to do with his life. It's just too depressing that my eagerness to pull him out of the muck didn't push through. Can't help him the most if he doesn't even want to be helped in the first place. Call this major major epic fail.

Another thing, betrayal has found its way when an i-believe-we're-friends friend dragged me into his business networking only to be considered as his potential client. Seeing him taking opportunity at my ill situation makes me hate him the most. First, he got me too irritated setting up a coffee date that he said would enable us to catch on each other's lives because we're both too busy that we we're missing out a lot on our friendship. So the i-don't-know-how-to-say-no princess in me had gave in to his persistence, only to see myself being stuck in a table of presentation about this and that product. For the first three minutes, he was kind enough to ask how i am doing, and the moment i stopped narrating things i thought he wished to know, triggered in him the go signal to insist his business and product presentation. No coffee, meal or even water was offered in four hours. I wish i could reach for something sharp that moment and slash both our wrists. To hell with it.

Anyways, crap this is all about.

Steal

It's a steal for 25. Thanks booksale for the bargain. I heart dave barry. This made my day

Bad weekstarter

Bad weekstarter.

I am kind of grouchy this morning that i am speaking to nobody at all.

I feel sad and ill-tempered for getting my cousin and my friend a job that they seem to appreciate not and show lesser value to it. Their deliquencies echoed through me, and it is as if i am equally punishable for their deeds. Sucks. I can only look up and ask Him to shed some light to these kind of people. Sigh.

********

I was hopin' my day would get better seeing superhero in my dreams last night. But it was the other way around as it made me even more debilitated that i couldn't even finish my work hours. I am going home at 11, for once i am letting my negative energies take the better of me.

*******

Job hunting. I need to. I must.

ON STEREOTYPING

"It is true that specific individuals, including some who are Muslims, are violent extremists. However, these are individuals but not entire communities…When their violent actions are associated with an entire community, then blame is assigned to a whole group. This is the very heart of stereotyping and scapegoating, which is counterproductive. Ascribing the evil acts of a few individuals to an entire community is wrong; it is ineffective, and it risks making our country less secure." - Rep. Keith Ellison, a Minnesota Democrat

kasama

minsan gusto ko din may kasama akong haharap sa karayom na sisipsip ng dugo mula sa katawan ko. :)

lazy friday

I keep on missing you and dearly wish that you are safe wherever you may be. *** It's a lazy friday morning and the thought of taking a rest this weekend hasn't even crossed my mind. I need to get myself busy and distract my attention to being still and thinking only of the voids in my life. It's been a quite a cross to carry, heavy load on my shoulder as i try to walk in the light of my future. I miss the silly old me who gets much distracted by any knick-knacks under the sun, or bolted to the bed on a dear Sunday or leisurely spending time outside with much dearie friends. I don't know what wearied my aspirations a bit, but i don't seem too inspired the past few days, and too much holler in my darker side has made me pity myself even more. Well, i guess, i am going back to square one as the pig that i am don't fit my current pen. To sum it up, i am disturbed, depressed, and lonely. Hmmmnnn.... I wish could sip a cuppa hot coffee. If only.

Roberth Fulghum’s Eight Maxims on Giving and Getting Love

1. Love cannot be forced or bought.

2. You can only get from another person the love they are able and willing to give in the form they can give it in.

3. You cannot get from another person the love you demand and need in the form you wish.

4. If what they have to give is what you want, then love works.
If not, it doesn’t and won’t.

5. If you concentrate on getting love, there will never be enough.

6. If you concentrate on giving love, there will always be enough.

7. Most people need the most love when they are the most unlovable.
That includes you. And me.

8. Finally, love is not a present you give or get, but something you do.

If that seems like a solemn list, that’s because it’s meant to be.
I take love seriously.
And I tell you that if you never understand these maxims, then all the chocolate you ever receive on Valentine’s Day will be dark and bitter.”

-Robert Fulghum

usapan sa umaga

B: "Minsan ba sumagi sa isipan mo na isang araw babalik sya?" G: "Alam ko naman na babalik sya. Hindi ko lang alam kung ano ang plano nya pagbalik nya. Basta andito lang ako palagi." NO GOODBYES?

on a moving bus

The essential nature of being human will not change much over time.
You will always be caught somewhere in the middle between where you’ve been and where you’re going, between what you have and what you want.
It’s called Now and it isn’t a place, it’s a condition.

Being alive is not a destination, it’s a place on a moving bus.

You will always have more questions than answers.
You will never get yourself or the world all figured out.

You will never ever really know what other people think about you.
You will never ever really understand what you think about yourself.
You are not as alone as you think, but it always seems that way.

You will always be in the middle.
Between the facts and confusions, between the joys and cruelties of life.
All this will weigh on your mind as long as you live.

Life will always be a load to carry.
But most of the time you can do it.

(Robert Fulghum)

HAPPINESS

Happiness is more often than not made of small moments that don’t last.

Happiness is transient, momentary, evanescent.

And it’s most likely private and personal.

Like a moment when the sun breaks through the clouds and shines for an instant on your face and hands on a dreary morning.

It can turn your day around.

-Robert Fulghum

QUIRKS

I was lost last night. Sudden quirks on my emotional stability. I needed to die last night. If only i could. I was determined to beat the crap in me. Admittedly, it has always been this heavy, the load getting heavier and heavier as my uncle continuously punctures the wounds i so keep on healing. It was madness. I wanted a bullet blasting off right in the center of my cerebrum. It was just right that i left my maggy to my cousin for a bath. Had i gotten it beside me, i could have plunged it in my sea of angst and raging hormones. I was so hurt, it was so painful, everything about me is crap. I say me and uncle are both scarred. We both have been mired too long in the muck of insanity. Repressed emotions of failures and disappointments. And to let it resurfaced in the fore is to put each other at the risk of ending one's life. Say i am prepared. I don't know.

lost

i need a home :'(

WEEBEE

Been skipping blogs the past days all for the glory of my ..well.. very exciting and encouraging job (pun intended!) To say i am stuck with the assholes is an understatement, there's no greater adjective than that to describe where i am right now.

The antithesis of it is i am still alive. I have managed to still keep my wrist away from anything sharp for the time being. Haleluyah!

Just for the randomness in me, i was able to steal a few minutes of my precious labor hours after dopamine provocation. Oh well...

> I miss you. Yes... you. I've been scouring the lengths of the earth just to find you. Approximately 200 moons had already passed, i got to stare at the gazillion twinkling stars, and i had almost 200 nights dreaming of you. Pump it up, i know you're just there, but wouldn't it be nicer and sweeter and happier if for once you would step out of that pumping station and stand in front of me? I miss you saif.

> PC reformat. Yes, i'll do it later. It's been 3 weeks of interrupted Windows entry and the hell with the repeated bios and black screen booting. I know my 2004 machine is kinda old, but it still deserves a bunch of my.. well.. expertise. Lol. As long as i can repair or reformat or whatever-could-bring-life-into-it, i would with all ardour and fervour. Unless a huge chunk of moolah fall straight into my face enough to replace it with an i7 dude, i'll stick to my sempron buddy 'till the cows come home. hahaha.

> I got a new buddy, my one and a half tera wd elements. Store all i can, even if i would want some memories to be erased in the cluster of my brain. Now that sounds so sentimental. lols. Can i just switch back to the boring one?

> My past does not define my future. Haha. Nothing much to say, i just had few realizations about things of my past that i am so glad to have moved on since it got myself pestered. Seriously, i think it just takes time and a clear mind and understanding and acceptance (and ano pa! :))) to be able to step forward to something better. Hhhmmmnnn, i would prefer not to blurt out the details, but i am just so glad that things have happened the way it should.

Lunch break muna. Ciao

in between

don't i just miss daryo?

LAKAD. LABAN SA STRESS.

looking for me?

looking for me?

gimme a buzz. hahaha.

french vanilla

french vanilla.
only reminds me of you.

help

I suck big time after a quality meeting with the @ssh0les.

I was thinking of going out for good.

But where shall i go after?

The going gets tough. I think it won't be long till i quit this piece of sh*t.

HELP.

talisman

God has felt the pain in me the moment i lay myself to bed. My stomach was churning in a mix of pain, longings, suffering and depression. It's good that I managed to keep my wrist away from anything sharp for the time being.

I am as if a child begging for a candy. God knows my pain, so in between my being disturbed and being awake, i found my hero sitting beside me, holding my hands, and assuring me of a peaceful journey. I was enthralled by his presence, if only i could just stay in my dreams. He was there, clad in his beige polo and smiling face. It was a definite isolation from reality, an imagination-drive moment that connected me to the past and served as bridge to the present.

Dreams like this have always been a talisman of sort, an invisible patch that makes the journey of my outward bound life mesmerizing. There is no better way to relish the day but to look back at those, and somehow a pain in me had subsided even for a moment.

I'm in a sine curve again. I am missing happiness. SO much.

How

I miss you mr.courageous.

I wish i could be with you in this life again. But i dont know the chances. Thank you for making this ill princess feel cared and loved, even for a moment. I dont know where you are right now, you carry my heart with you, and you left your heart with me.

It's been half a year.

Where are you?

I know i couldn't pass this depression. I just know.

But in the event that i submit myself to Him, carry with you my heart.......

Dear daryo

Im here.remember?i miss you.

bokehlicious

Bumobokeh na paningin ko s antok...ZzzzZzzzzz

Oh please

It's an early morning Wednesday work. I got in a little sleepy, doze off late last night because i was very busy smashing the pigs. (lol. angry birds mode) Halfway through the week i was setting myself all the positive good vibes i could to fuel me more into an increased productivity.

I'm just a little bit disturbed that i am surrounded by negative people that rob me off some energy that i so very need. Distrustful people that is way too proud of themselves for being such, dishonest people that later wonder why their life has been so miserable. People who gossip about others life, then ask above why sacrifice and hardships are their daily staples.

During these trying times, it sucks to be surrounded by these kinds of two-legged creatures.

Oh please.

I need a breather.

Antisocial

I am.

all because i am one angry bird.

LOL.

Let's play Angry Birds!

to the moon and back

I would fly you to the moon and back, if you'll be, if you'll be my baby.
02192011.1930

GIO

Welcome to the family GIO!

HOME

Four days of driving hiatus had taken its toll. I just bailed out my car from the autoshop where they got it fixed.

I got into an accident last week on my way home when an overtaking Sentra cut on me and hit my fender and bumper. The initial police investigation vindicated me and had an inkling to press the blame on the other vehicle. The Sentra owner initially had to deny the charges. I had to turn the spark into a conflagration and as i am bound to lift the case to the higher authority and have both our vehicles impounded and our licenses confiscated, the other vehicle raised his white flag and reversed his militant denial of reality.

So during my four-day driving hiatus i had to get off earlier to catch our shuttle service. I was once again a commuter, who at first doesn't know how much the fare for a specific travel is. Oh poor me, breaking a habit has always been a back to square one thing.

But tell you, riding the shuttle is still sweet in its own simple ways. I get to savor quick cat naps during the travel. I get to tinker with my ipod, play games, or even read a book on the way. I even get to chat with a seatmate. How could i turn catatonic to that!

For a moment i get to enjoy simple things that i have missed when my sweetie's off to recovery.

And now me and my sweetie are back on track. Of course, i so dearly missed my company. While it is literally a fact that i am the one riding my car to where i want to go, the same holds true to sweetie as he rides me in all my physical and emotional sentiments as we cruise together along the way. In my more than three-year relationship with it, it has taken much blows and counts to save its princess, and i know it will do so to the best that it could in the days to come.

And where sweetie is, the road is always fine and smooth, and it is always warm and sunny.

I am so happy to be cuddled up by sweetie again.

I am so glad to be home.

The inner world will always control the outer world.

The inner world will always control the outer world. Don’t be afraid of
storms around you. It’s the storms inside you that can destroy you. The
stress. The tension. The worry.

(God Whispers Club)

Waiting

Sunduin mo na ako -sweetie

commuter

I miss my sweetie.

HOGS AND KISSES

I'm excited for HOGS AND KISSES.

DO NOT DISTURB: Angry Birds mode

HAPPY VALENTINES!

I'd like to give you a pocket full of love today.
And a basket filled with the following:

>A shadow cast by a guardian angel.
>The memory of the laugh that comes after a hiccup.
>The end of a small rainbow.
>A map a raven made when it flew across the sky.
>The answer to the question of Who knows where the time goes?
>The sweet smell of success.
>The sound of summer rain on a tin roof.
>Three wishes.
>The morning after.
>The day before.
>The time being.
>The time to come.
>Lady Luck’s cell phone number.
>The abiding affection of an old friend named Lois
>And the Greek wish for ‘Chronya Pollah’ - many years.
(excerpt from Robert Fulghum's article)

HAPPY VALENTINES!

The Philippine International Hot Air Balloon Fiesta 2011 (PIHABF)

The Philippine International hot Air Balloon Fiesta 2011 (PIHABF)
021210
Clark Economic Zone Pampanga

GGGgggrrrr

The car incident has been causing me too much trouble. I have to arrange things on my own as i maximize my available resources and network.

Will somebody please help the princess?

BANGGAAN

maingat naman ako magmaneho. pero madalas ako ang binabangga :'(

eto ang mga butihin kong kaibigan na hindi ako iniwan hanggang sa presinto ^_^

salamat pareng jay at marvin.

Napapagod na ako sa pakikipagtalo. Sa pakikipag-usap. Sa sistema. Ang pulis na ang tagal dumating tapos walang dalang kamera, walang dalang flashlight. Ang mga taong nakikiusyoso at parang husgadong nagsasabi kung sino ang tama at mali. Ang istasyon ng pulis na walang photocopier para sa rehistro ng mga sasakyan at lisensya sa pagmamaneho. Ang nakabanggang ayaw umamin sa kasalanan. Ang mga miron na matatapang. Nakakasawa na.

Ang hindi lang nagsasawa, yung nasa taas na walang sawang sinasagip ako sa gitna ng mga pangyayaring ganito. Yung pilit na nagliligtas sa kin. Yung patuloy na gumagabay sa kin. Para saan nga ba at maluluma ang lahat ng bagay, kakalawangin ang mga bakal, kukupas ang pintura, mauubos ang pera, pero hindi kailanman maiibalik ang buhay na nawala na.

Salamat sa Diyos at ligtas ako palagi :)

toxic

Toxic day since yesterday :'(

Di maka blog ng mahaba =))

work work work

death

“Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live.” ~Norman Cousins

lol

I was supposed to skip work today.
I'm too lazy to face the dragons.

-/-

just for a month

Just for a month.
A month.
If it doesn't turn out well, IM OUT.

wurk

me wurkin' on weekend.

again.


sucks.

REUNITED

Am back in the ballgame. Lemme' give yah my best shots!

I love you the way certain dark things are loved

I do not love you as if you were a rose made of salt or topaz
or an arrow of carnations spreading fire:
I love you the way certain dark things are loved,
secretly, between the shadow and the soul.
-Pablo Neruda

and i'll always love you for who you are :)

Bad Liar

I'm a bad liar. Yna can still read the disappointments in my face amidst my silence.
I got two rejection mails today = I got two blessings for today.
I must never give up on life even if it hasn't been fair. (Thanks Marg for the reminder) .

:)

Tomorrow will be better :)

Smiling for another darker day.

Tomorrow will be better :)

have i eluded the proverbial pain of his absence?

I ransacked the archives in my messenger to facilitate my longingness, missing someone so dearly after almost half a year of non-existence. From the dead calm of the night rose a metamorphosed princess, entangling herself all the more in the most profound and vivid memories imbued with greater intensity.

Let me miss you this much again and again and again...

The sweet remembrances and good feelings which had been sanded and polished by time, memory and maturity, shall always bring lightness to my spirit. The petty, funny memories have their own ways of bringing to the fore stories and anecdotes of our shared past.

And again, my heart tumbled with a love that i cannot explain.

My relative isolation from him feeds my desire to hold him close to me immediately even more.

Then there's magical abundance amidst him not being around.. or him disappearing from the known.

And I have eluded the proverbial pain of his absence.

wink

Wasn't able to clocked out at four yesterday. I worked for another extended hour, with the pounding and drilling inside my head getting more sinisterly at the passing of time.

I could learn to stay still and endure a bit more of the aches while earning more for the manna but i decided to just bring myself home and nail a grand rest i believe i so need. Back home, amidst the aches of my head, i could feel that my room is the nicest place in the world, a fine respite for me, and whatever woes of the day i brought with have been put on perspective. There's no place like home.

As i am momentarily free from the cares of the outside world, i took a good rest lying comfortably in my bed, sheets rolled up, and Narnia 3 on screen.

*wink*

headache

This whole day affair with headache needs to stop.
The more i try to ignore it, the more it pounds the hell out on me.

Gotta go home at four.

new Arbeitgeber

Is expecting a call from an Arbeitgeber.
Lol.
Lemme nail this one.
Hell, i need a new life.

Kopi mubi

Thank you Lord for your pipelines of love in the form of two-legged creatures called  friends.

Had a great kopi and mubi date with jenn.

I miss my ate kims.

Work again tomorrow.

Zzzz.


Nyt

Freezin

Gaaaaaah

Its freezin cold here.

please

pressured na naman #-o

i need a breather

God give me the strength to hold on

10 Commandments of Life

i got mail today from Ms. Eva:

1] Prayer is not a "spare wheel" that you pull out when in trouble, but it is a "steering wheel" that directs the right path throughout. 2] So a Car's WINDSHIELD is so large & the Rear view Mirror is so small? Because our PAST is not as important as our FUTURE. So, Look Ahead and Move on. 3] Friendship is like a BOOK. It takes few seconds to burn, but it takes years to write. 4] All things in life are temporary. If going well, enjoy it, they will not last forever. If going wrong, don't worry, they can't last long either. 5] Old Friends are Gold! New Friends are Diamond! If you get a Diamond, don't forget the Gold! Because to hold a Diamond, you always need a Base of Gold! 6] Often when we lose hope and think this is the end, GOD smiles from above and says, "Relax, sweetheart, it's just a bend, not the end! 7] When GOD solves your problems, you have faith in HIS abilities; when GOD doesn't solve your problems HE has faith in your abilities. 8] A blind person asked St. Anthony: "Can there be anything worse than losing eye sight?" He replied: "Yes, losing your vision!" 9] When you pray for others, God listens to you and blesses them, and sometimes, when you are safe and happy, remember that someone has prayed for you. 10] WORRYING does not take away tomorrow's TROUBLES, it takes away today’s PEACE.

musings

Looking back, i sum up all those almost million coins i spent in exchange for my existence today. It was last year when i came up with the hardest and fiercest decision ever to be made for the last 2 decades as i cup the one thing i would love to hold in my hand, my very own life. Fear and pain were at the forefront of my emotions, of grave sinister delights as i abandon those pills that propelled me to the present.

I know the pains and regrets of those days had been heaped up, as they were acknowledged and placed to where memories are safely and dearly kept.

And i am now here. Breathing. Alive.

I know i wouldn't last longer as expected to every human alive, but at least i would love to do what an ordinary one ought to. The craft of my life is lifted with the incoming tide, as i sway and get myself carried by the river of time into whatever the future may bring.

Silencio

I hate it and it hurts a lot when his name would be dragged in a conversation that has everything to do with me.

For crying out loud, i have my own life to live, and while he has made his choice, and i respect him with all my might.

Silencio.

:)

usapan

utak: pano kung pagbalik nya iba na laman ng puso nya?
puso: pano kung pinanghahawakan pa din nya ung pangako nya?
utak: pano ka na?
puso: ang tanong, pano kung wala na sya?
utak: pano nga ba?
puso: ?

ZIP UNLOCK

Pineapple Tuesday!

The zipper of my pants had come off completely as it got broke minutes before an interview. I didn't see it coming, i just realized that something is a bit loose when i got off the car. Ye, i had my blouse tuck in.

I got back inside the car and look for whatever emergency fixes available, but to no avail. I had to carry an envelope low enough to hide the opening gate. lol.

What could be more devastating than this =))

headache

My head still aches.

I stormed out of bed in a late 7am and have whisked past an hour to prepare for another quest for career growth. I wasn't that too excited for it, i was sick since yesterday finding relevant parallels to guide me in resolving some dilemmas i have gotten myself into.

> to quit or not to quit
> stay and pursue my PME
> attend the interview today
> to quit to give justice to my sleepless and tearful nights
> to stay to be used again and again

I don't know.

My head aches.

Sick

Maybe i was just superstressed.

Or maybe Grace had gotten me on my way to chickenpox kingdom. Oh God please no no no.

It just felt so debilitating i could barely move. I even had difficulty driving.

Jojit got me an antidote in the form of grande hot white choco and hot cinammon roll.
(thanks a bunch for the treat)

Though it saddens me that i only have my ceilings to watch over me, it feels comforting to just lie here on my bed with the sheets rolled up.

My solitary life.

I hope i get well tomorrow.

Nyt nyt lovies.

I love my job

I LOVE MY JOB

by Francis Kong

http://franciskong.com/motivation/i-love-my-job/

Dr. Seuss came up with a poem entitled “I Love My Job” and it is so funny in its attempt to reflect reality. Now listen to this:

I love my job, I love the pay, I love it more and more each day.

I love my boss and he's the best. I love HIS boss and all the rest.

I love my office and it's location. I hate to have to take vacation.

I love my desk, drab and gray, and love those paper piles each day.

I love my chair in my padded cell; there's nothing else I love so well.

I love to work among my peers. I love their leers 'n jeers 'n sneers.

I love my computer and all its ware; I hug it often to show I care.

I love each program and every file; I even try using it once in a while.

I'm happy to be here, I am, I am...I'm the happiest slave to my Uncle Sam.

I love this work; I love these chores; I love the meetings with deadly bores.

I love my job AND I'll say it again, I even love these friendly men:

These men who've come to visit today, in lovely white coats to take me away!

So what is he saying here? That those who really love their jobs are truly insane?

This is funny and it actually reflects the attitude of many people in the work place.

What about you? Do you share the same sentiment?

If you think your job is awful allow me to give you a list of the world’s most terrible jobs. And here is the list:

1. Nuclear Warhead Sensistivity Technician
2. Circus Elephant Clean Up Specialist
3. Rotten Sardine Taste Detector
4. Executive Assistant To The Boss's Nephew
5. Shark Baiter
6. Russian Cartographer
7. Vice President, Screen Door Sales, North Pole Division
8. Hurricane Photographer
9. Director Of Public Relations, Chernobyl Nuclear Facility
10. The Person Responsible For Replacing Urinal Deodorizers
11. Prison Glee Club President
12. MGB Electrical Specialist
13. Road Kill Removal Crew

A lot of people complain all the time about the kind of jobs they are involved in yet when news travel through the grapevine that a re-engineering is about to take place, layoffs will happen, that will be the only time they begin to value their jobs.

No one can make you happy and neither can anyone make you unhappy in your job. It is your choice you make and no one can make that choice for you. There are people out there who would be happy to take over your job if you are willing to hand it over.

Work is a blessing. It is not a curse. It becomes a curse when you make it so.

Only productive people can be happy and only the happy people can be productive. This has been the secret of winners and now this secret is yours to keep.

Stop focusing on your boss as the monster and start focusing on God as your Provider and Employer and do everything you can to make the most out of your job. Learn new things. Improve your craft. And then suddenly, a mysterious thing begins to happen. You begin to be excited with your job.

Just a parting thought:

Live every day as if it were your last. Do every job as if you were the boss. Drive as if all other vehicles were police cars. Treat everybody else as if he were you.

Love God serve Him and men and enjoy your day.

baskin' and swayin'

baskin' and swayin'

"Life is a storm, my young friend. You will bask in the sunlight one moment, be shattered on the rocks the next. What makes you a man is what you do when that storm comes." - Alexandre Dumas

RAINBOW BRIGHT

One can enjoy a rainbow without necessarily forgetting the forces that made it. - Mark Twain

Weekends are a bit like rainbows; they look good from a distance but disappear when you get up close to them. - John Shirley

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