Chloe

Call me... Chloe :D

Beep Beep

Beep beep!

Honking here and there. Just because it's been hell toxic, i was magically drawn to my very own HOME. After all these years, it still feels home here :)

I've changed to a number of things and the most noticeable of course is the weighing scale hand swinging to an added half of what i used to have. I could have gotten a digital one but hey, i love the things i used to have way before these easy-peasy gadgets took over our lives. I've moved from here and there, switched roles from peasant to queen (duh!), jumped over different fences, laughed and cried a lot, migrated from symbian to android os. I've learned a lot in these years of transition from being just a plain drama queen to a hall of famer Oscar's best actress. Seriously, after all these years, I thank God for all the things that happened to me and i couldn't be any happier to what i am now, what i have, and the operating os i currently tinker into.

So what's the buzz? Wala lang. I just felt the need to pin this down. I'm back, hopefully.

Hopefully.

Her majesty

Sleep

Last night, i can't really pinpoint the quandary i am in, and the ambivalence i feel in the face of it. There's not much to talk it out, and i chose to sleep away with it.

Workweek

Another work week to fulfill.

I still haven't set my self on-board blogging again, and that my thoughts are going way of out of wack in expressing it organized.

Not much to expect, but a lot to accept.

Not much to expect, but a lot to accept.

Thoughts could brim until they overflow.

The Nearness of You

It's not the pale moon that excites me
That thrills and delights me
Oh no, it's just the nearness of you.

:)

Peek

So this afternoon, i decided to walk down the memory lane and read my blog entries way way back many pounds ago.

It sure brought smiles and tears. Looking back, it felt comfortable pouring everything in this space. It also kinda makes me sad that i do not have the luxury of time now to do this all over again.

But who knows, maybe tomorrow again?

Heya

It's been donkey's years. Quite not sure if I'll be resurrecting this den, or will have a total revamp for pushing the stark reality to the surface of consciousness.

Let's just see :)

:)

:)

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out

i never meant to desert this home. i was just out, exploring other means of survival.

blog

i miss you blog.

i'll be back

promoted

lie

lie.

Always in a limbo

April seems to pass by so quickly and i am barely six nights away from my favorite month of all months.

Haven't had any plans yet on how to get through this, as this would come in sheer anticipation and vague refusal in equal measure. The coming of my natal day marks my greatest existence that i almost lost about a decade ago, when i found out that i have to live with a malady for the rest of my life.  The coexistence has costs me a life that i wouldn't want my love ones to experience. I have journeyed to the deep-seated corners of despair and have braved the storms to feel even just a tiny speck of sunshine. And i am always reminded of this when a number is to be added to the years of my existence.

Always in a limbo.

enchanting morning

There's so much about life that i don't understand. Most of the times, the simplest things are the most difficult to comprehend. Foremost, the difficult things are those that seep through the bottom and prick where the flesh is fresh and exposed.

To counter the feeling of confusion and uneasiness, i just enjoy every single moment that flicks in the theater of my life. No matter how hard it is to comprehend, it's the feeling of having something to comprehend that delights me the most. Life is not life if there's no mystery involved.

The greatest mystery is that there's not enough room to contain His love for us despite of all the life's hardest questions that we pose to Him. Despite of all the hardships and challenges that we face, we still wake up to beautiful mornings and that alone is the greatest of all the greatest mysteries to name.

It's indeed an enchanting morning.

WELCOME KRANSKY!

Crumpler Kransky. 

Welcome to my heart.

 

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You want freedom, not limitations. Continuous cargo space, not contiguous compartments. To carry a load, not carry on about how to load it. Welcome then to the 100% pure lo fi simplicity of The Old Banger and Kransky duffle bags – population you.

Right-sized for sports of all sorts, the gym, pool, beach, one-nighters or anything involving a seven figure ransom in unmarked notes, these zippered hold-a-lots pack away 45 litres of stuff with seek and ye shall find convenience. They also feature a handy internal zippered utility pocket, plus an external zippered pocket with integrated key ring.

There goes the junkie in me.

If Only by Dave Matthews Band

"If Only"

Dave Matthews Band

Oh yeah
Some days it's so easy
Sometimes I forget how
Much I want you back again
Back again

Well maybe it's a game
You win some and you lose some
But when you've found a good one
Don't you let her get away
Don't let her go

Oh yeah
If only I could have you
Just the way I want you
Oh, to have you back again
Back again baby

Oh, I'm just a fool baby
Playing Mr. Cool baby
Rolling round like I got nothing much to lose
But I know you and you know me
And I know you can see
So help me find my way back to you
Back to you

Walking past your window
You used to smile and throw
Your sweet kisses back to me
Back to me

Oh yeah
Remember when I asked you
If you'd be my one true
It seems like yesterday
Just like yesterday

Oh yeah, and I'm just a fool baby
Playing Mr. Cool baby
Rolling round like I got nothing much to lose
But I know you and you know me
And I know you can see
So help me get my way back to you
Back to you

I want you so take me back please
Take me back my baby

If only I could have you
Just the way I want you
Yeah

I'm just a fool baby
Playing Mr. Cool baby
Rolling round like I got nothing much to lose babe
But I know you and you know me
And I know you can see
So help me get my way back to you

I want you so take me back please
Take me back my baby

If only I could have you
Just the way I want to
Just the way I was
Yeah

You get your heart broken with a slight hint of ignorance.

You get your heart broken with a slight hint of ignorance.

I know i always do. The broken heart thingy. I have been keeping this for myself, and last night was just too much. 

I cannot contain it. I know i could have blurted out what this pumping unit has been keeping all those silly times, but i just couldn't. It wouldn't be right. So for the nth time, i just have to keep it to myself and witness how it will all go down the drain, without anyone knowing it.

I will never have the courage to say what i really want to. My actions will always speak for me, and however and whatever it is interpreted, it will be my only contentment.

I will always care.

Kill Joy

It's so confusing at times to pinpoint what i am nursing between the two: the malady or my existence.

Most of the times, i am so blinded by the consequences of this malady that i missed out on the glitter of my existence. Obvious times when i would just wallow in the darkest corner and prohibit interaction with known species. Hibernation to non-existence. Fear of inflicting harm to others. Name it, i have all the reasons not to splurge on the gaiety life has to offer. Kill Joy.

slumber 2

I haven't been in touch for quite some time. Recently, I had this knack for mum-keeping, my heart and mind conniving to conceal the details of my human emotion, choosing pedestrian and triviality over pompous proclamations. Having been in a few mess myself, i decided to temporarily restrain the princess in me from getting stuck in a bog for longer periods of time.

So there goes my juices. Lurking beneath its deepest slumber.

slumber

I had the urge to abandon this nook, but i know i just couldn't. My pen had been in hiatus for quite some time, left undisturbed by the passing of time and the life that flicks through the screen of my reality. I chose to let my pen rests on its deep slumber, while i battle and conquer on what i so called adventure of the unknown.

dork

times like these when i feel like a dork.

it's frustrating.

i've never been into this kind of mess.

bright lights

because the lights are so bright i couldn't just ignore the coming of the season.. 

and then i remember..

i am just alone.

Passion is indeed a profession.

A woman passionately pours herself in a canvass during the sun's highest peak. It's one of those lunch-outs that i stumble upon something that so resolutely radiates inside me as well. Passion is indeed a profession.

Irresponsible

I have been acting irreponsibly for the past weeks. Committing an honest mistake is enough to get me back to my senses.

It's been way difficult. But I have to bear the consequences of my actions.

Nuff said.
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Awkward seatmate

That awkward feeling of sitting beside a very sleepy girl that bounces her head on and off my shoulder, of being worried that in any minute, her drool would gush on my sleeve. Ye, I missed the nap I could have enjoyed just because her head is so heavy it felt like a boulder is on my shoulder.
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?

i don't know if i could still keep this. i've been madly crushed for quite a long time, never knowing when this emotion would stop rushing. in a limbo of whether to keep still or surrender. sometimes, silence is the best option.

dapithapon

"ang sabi nga ng iba, kung talagang mahal mo sya, hahayaan mong lumisan..."

dapithapon

by johnoy danao

sad.

sad.lonesome.

THERE'S A NEW KID IN TOWN

THERE'S A NEW KID IN TOWN. 

Polished professional. Aspiring Amateur. Happy snappy chappy or chapette. It makes no difference.

Crumpler 7 Million Dollar Home.

Feel at home.

SANDISK

the pinky survived the torrential splashes of water and detergent. 

Oh such a lucky drive.