Love is the river of life in the world.

Love is the river of life in the world.

SOUTHERN REFLECTIONS @ AYALA WESTGROVE

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Ayala Westgrove

(photo: rey baptista)


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GOOD TIMES

Didn't get enough sleep last night. I was off to bed as early as 930pm but the temptation of having just a round of Lumines in the psp couldn't be resisted. This was part of my getting back to my usual self, of what i was a year ago, part of a self-inflicted ordeal that i have long been trying hard to conquer.

I didn't know where all the time went, but i was able to unlock another 3 stages in Lumines, thereby beating my highest score last year of 87287 to 114031. Puzzle fusion indeed. Not bad, hehe. My eyes were indeed closing halfway as i reach the game over. Time for me to rest.

I was over the game Lumines but i guess i wasn't over with the hordes of puzzle fusions in me. My body lay softly in my bed, but my mind was wandering somewhere,somehow, sometime, into something where it shouldn't.

Hardee's. Delicious burgers. Laughter. Banter. "ANong gusto mo?" "Anong drinks mo?" "Shake?" "Hmmmnnn... sarap." "Gamot mo?Nainom mo ba?"

The alarm beeped. 1am. Sustainability. Maintenance. Life.

I woke up from a dream. I was shocked. It seemed so real. Am i travelling back in time? I smiled. Good times Lois. Good times. I still have it in me. And my unconscious has been rolling it once in a while, to remind me that there is so much to cherish on my yesterday.Forget about the times i got stabbed straight to the pumping center of my being. We all make mistakes. What matters now are the good times that we had, good times that we can always draw strength on, good times that let us define our survival.

Being back to my usual self, i sustained my life with a pill that extended my days here on earth. To live life longer, to create moments that would take my breath away. Good times. Good times.

Welcome back lois. You definitely are getting there :)

TOO LAZY

I'm just too lazy to blog lately

:D

LIFE IS A CRAZY RIDE

"Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside, totally worn out and proclaiming...
"Wow, what a ride!"
- author unknown

FRIENDSHIP

We all take different paths in life, but no matter where we go, we take a little of each other everywhere.
-Tim McGraw-

Will you still love me even if I’m not perfect?

Was just forwarding an email to a very dear friend about soliciting feedbacks to the products that we both purchased on the net over a month ago. I rechecked
the sent items just to make sure that i forwarded the email in verbatim. My attention was drawn to the other sent items i had in the folder, and look what i have found :)

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Will you still love me even if I’m not perfect?

Will you still love me even if I’m not perfect? Will you still love me even if I’m not the kind of person you wished I were? Will you still look into my eyes with warmth even if you saw my shadows? Will you still hold my hand even if you knew there will be times I’d let you down?

For though I yearn to take care of you as I should, though I desire to love you with a love that never falters and fades, my knees tremble this very moment that you hold me in your arms.

Shall I kiss you? Shall I hold your hand and bask in the light of your spirit knowing that I have my darkness, knowing there will be times that the light of my love will sometimes be overshadowed by the darkness that is in me?

Sometimes I’d be silent and I might bore you. I may not laugh at your jokes, and you may not understand the spell that’s enshrouding me. Sometimes I’d get troubled and I’d fail to put into words what the hell it is that troubles me. I wouldn’t be good company then, and I couldn’t make you smile.

Sometimes I’d get moody and I might not enjoy the things you’d like us to do together. Sometimes I’d lose my temper and I’d no longer act like the fine person who stands before you today. Sometimes I’d get jealous and I might say things I don’t really mean. Sometimes I’d talk too much that I might drive you away.

Sometimes I’d get touchy and I’d get easily hurt. And no matter how mature I try to be, at times I’d act in childish ways. I’d demand things I shouldn’t, I’d say thing I shouldn’t say. And no matter how much I desire to protect you and make you happy, sometimes I’d be the one who’d cause you the most pain.

If you will love me I cannot promise you that I will not hurt you. I cannot promise you that I will not make you cry and that I’ll never break your heart. But if you will love me, I will bare my whole self naked before you, and I will reveal to you my soul. If you will love me, you can be certain that it is I that you will love, not a mask that fools you and gives you only what your eyes desire to see. If you will love me, you can be certain that you will love the depths of me, all of me that is in me, and I in turn will love you with all of me, with all my soul, with all my mind, with all my spirit, with all my flaws and beauty, and with all my very heart.


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my thoughts about this article: Rest assured that i will love you twice in this life.
1st. When you are perfect
2nd. When you are not perfect.

I'll always love you.
You'll always have my heart :)


your LOIS :)

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I rushed to the restroom and let the tears freely ran my face.

FLAT TIRE

Car trouble is a serious matter, especially on an unexpected instance. We didn't expect to find Kismot's left rear tire flat on the road after the visit we had to Leiz at LB Doctor's Hospital last Sunday.

This had broken our forward momentum of having a sumptuous meal at Jolibee. Ron had immediately resolved to change the flat tire and asked Jojit to pull the spare. He asked for an early warning device to which Jojit didnt has. Hehe. So off Ron went to Kea to get the warning device. It seems like Jojit hasn't well been oriented much to his new toy, unaware that the spare has been screwed securely at the trunk. I was looking for the jack, only to find a mechanical one at the side of the trunk. So again, Ron pulled out his hydraulic jack from Kea.

And the tire changing was staged.

Thanks to the very cool and brave Ron :)

I am very blessed to have this two brave fellas during some journeys of my life where my tires had been flat. Aw. Ang cheesy :) I love you both.

To Jojit: We'll be buying your hydraulic jack and early warning device this weekend by hook or by crook ok? Saka practice tayo magpalit ng gulong. hahaha.

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Our lives are filled with flat tire incidents as God has not promised us a life of carefree and enjoyment all throughout. We may become seriously ill, bombarded with financial problems, lose our jobs, have broken relationships, but He promised to be with us at all times no matter how hopeless it might seem.

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The Bible says in the first chapter of James, “Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at you from all sides. You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors. So don’t try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way.”

"We know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him" (Romans 8:28). Our tribulations should strengthen our faith (James 1:2-3).

No one looks forward to problems and suffering and troubles and pain and enemies and setbacks and difficulties and breakdowns and obstacles. No one expectantly anticipates flat tires, regardless of the form they take. But unfortunately, none of us grows when life is good and skies are clear and problems are few."

"Jesus through His Word and sacraments is the mechanic for all the breakdowns along our journey through life. He can repair all our problems and make us stronger than ever. Most important, His death on the cross has repaired our broken relationship with God. Our bill? Paid in full -- we own nothing.

We grow best and most when we are at the end of our ropes with nowhere to go but down. This is when God really shines in our lives. God specializes in allowing us to get to the end of ourselves and our resources and our abilities and our strength because then we have nowhere to turn but to him.

James, again, “Anyone who meets a testing challenge head-on and manages to stick it out is mighty fortunate. For such persons loyally in love with God, the reward is life and more life.”

LUCKY

Thanks jellie for this cute labor of love.
Love yah!

LIFE AT ITS BEST

Life is sweet.
I love coffee.
I love my psp.

Love is commitment at its best

Love is commitment at its best. It goes beyond feelings. A real commitment needs to be constantly renewed. Only then can a relationship withstand the trials and the fading of feelings and emotions. Only then will we be true to what the great Roman poet Virgil said: “Love conquers all.” Fr. Rudy Horst, SVD

MY CAKES

Wow. Thanks sa cakes pare :) Love it!
Kakainin kaya ng mga arabo yan? haha.

ANONG SIZE MO?

1220am, Unknown Call:
Caller: Hoy bakla, anong size mo?
Lois: Po? *kakagising lang sa kawalan*
Caller: Size nga ng paa!
Lois: 6 1/2
Call ended. Back to sleep.

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12:24am, 0122333 Calling:
Lois: Hello. Helloooo. Helloooooooooooo. *singhot ng sipon*
Nagbbounce lang ung boses ko. Tinawagan ko ba sarili ko?
Call ended.

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12:28am, Unknown Call:
Lois: Hellloooooooooooo *singhot singhot singhot*
Caller: Walang 6 1/2! 6 or 7?
Lois: Heh?*nahirapan pag iisip* 7 na lang
Caller: Makapal or manipis?
Lois: Makapal
Caller: Cge makapal na nga lang. Ung makapal ang pagmumukha. Bwahahaha.
Lois: Waaaaaaaaaaaaa *kung pede lang lumusot sa cellphone para batukan ung kausap ko*
Call ended.

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I miss my Kuya. So much.

Love you kuya >:D<

SAVED

I was dropping my sister on her work at LTI this morning because she failed to catch their shuttle service. I was on the left outermost lane and have decided to transfer to middle lane upon approaching Paseo de Sta. Rosa intersection, but the Red Innova at the back must be in a real hurry so as to beep us continuously to give way for it. I let the Red Innova pass and followed through the midlane just before halting to a full stop.

Green light. The Innova slowly inched forward. In a fraction of a second came a rushing tricycle beating the red light slamming right through the red innova. We were all in terrible shock seeing the tricycle flipped and the passengers thrown out outside. One of the passengers at the back seem to have his forehead crashed, i dunno, didn't have enough time to check on the details. The driver of the Red Innova in his White La salle Polo (must be a student i guess) got off his automobile and confronted the tricycle driver as we passed through them.

Just a thought. What if we didn't let the Red Innova get ahead of us in that middle lane?

God had saved us. Me, my sister, my car.

God has saved me from a major boo-boo.

Whoah.

God has saved me from a major boo-boo.

It's been a very, very good morning for me. After the typhoon Ondoy which had us stranded in Alabang for a real couple of hours (2pm - 11pm) due to the flooded SLEX, it feels so good waking up to God's warm embrace for a real brand new day.

The best in feeling comes in my life when the sky begins to clear up showing its cool blue hues after the rain. It's the feeling of a brand new day as the sun starts to dazzle.

THE WEDDING

This isn't gonna be long, it's just about the dream i had last night.

It was a simple wedding of mine. Funny how my unconscious had conspired with my whole soul to contemplate on this kind of dream. Ehe.

It was a beaded and sequined silk chiffon bridal dress that i am wearing. Did i fancy a bright sparkling jewelry?You bet because i am wearing one. Haha. The guests were just approximately less than 30. Whoah. Inside a chapel, everyone is all smiles.

The wedding imagery Went through for over an hour. The sad part is, i didn't see the groom's face. Who am i marrying? I dunno.

I was half smiling as i wake up from this dream. God always has a funny tingling way of pricking my emotions.

BETTER DAYS

:) Saturday sunshine :)

Didn't get enough sleep last night. Thinking and thinking too much, asking God for miracles, knocking at one's door which never opened for me.

:)

Yesterday was reminiscent of my old days when i would go home at three in the afternoon and doze for an hour or half before getting myself back again to my part-time work: teaching. I miss the days that i only have to think of my lectures and my students. I miss the days that i find myself too occupied with the newest PSP games, firmwares and other tech stuffs. I miss the days that i wait for the next gathering with my friends, an out of town or dinner, or just plain traipsing around the mall to kill the hours. I miss the good ol' better days when my heart isn't heavy, when the load isn't too burdensome, when the sun is at it's peak, or when we cheerfully dance under the rain.

There are tears in remembering better days, especially when you aren't any better at the present.

:)

Anyways, i'll be out to chase my liberty this weekend. Hope i'll be able to fully recover from the shackles of pain :)

LUCKIER

I cleaned my car yesterday full blast. It's always been full romance when i spend time with my real true love. Haha. I love may car. Thank heavens the rain didn't pour yesterday.

I was even luckier this morning to find an empty spot in our covered parking :) God is so good. I thank Him so much for the simple blessings he pour on me. I felt really blessed because the past few months, whenever i get my car washed, the rain pouring harder would be the next consequence. I am no jinx. But sometimes, i can't help but think that i am one. Or must i say so blessed i really am the heavens always get me drenched with holy waters from the skies. Ehe.

I am still missing my world. I always wake up to the sweet memories of my very world. I am always hoping that tomorrow would be better than today, that somehow, in the raggedness of our everyday lives, everything shall fall into places, in accordance to His will.

MORNINGS

I still wake up every morning with a pinch in my heart knowing i have loved someone so dearly inspite of everything that happened.

And that love doesn't stop when space sets it.

And that God knows what's best for me.

God bless me.

BLESSINGS

I got the greatest blessings for the day.

I am still alive and breathing.

One day at a time Lois.

And hey, I even got a bonus.

Mayor already paid me. :)

Thanks God.