HOME BREWED TO LOIS' HEART

I have just uploaded loads of homebrew games and applications in my psp. It's been quite a long time since i got stuck in the iso scrabble game that i got from lorenz. My attention has also been partly diverted into learning some card magic tricks, to which i got fully influenced by jmark. hahaha. I still would like to pursue my career as a magician but my "alimango fingers" (according to jmark) couldn't help much to the realization of my new career. (Bad ka )

While i was reading some psp stuffs, i realize how the psp world had advanced while i was absent I was left behind the news and modifications and others of that ilk. The most recent buzz i know is that Dark Alex has been kidnapped by Abu Sony Hahaha. (I miss you Dark Alex! You rock! ) Funny as it may seem, but really, i was mid-chuckling upon realizing that i haven't even remember what the hell my current firmware is!! (Redge!!! , ano nga ung huli mong upgrade???!?!?)

Much care has been given to this psp as i would to any of my gadgets. As a matter of fact, every night, it has its own space right on top of the pillow beside me. (You read it right. Katabi ko sa pagtulog. Adik. Ganun talaga pag walang katabi pagtulog. Tyaga sa psp ) And since my car stereo isn't working, this PSP has been my constant companion to all the trips i make, serving primarily as an mp3 player. It has also served my addiction to Need for Speed, Patapon, Luxor, Worms, Diner Dash, Crash of the Titans, Lumines, Blokus, Word Games, Puzzle Challenge, Scrabble (to which i have been currently hyper addicted) , and a lot more games to which i have spent some luxury of my time. At most times, it has fed me with wonderful insights and information serving as my ebook reader. It has also fed my optic nerves by playing the videos that i have uploaded. All in all, it has become my one-stop shop just when i need to unlock something inside me, be it a childish usurp on winning a game or just a wanton excuse to escape boredom.

Through it all, it has been a silent witness as i struggle to live my life. It has seen me bubbled with joy as i whisper words of love. It has felt my pain as once there were tears that gently watered its screen. It has heard the angst and pain that i had let out.

More than anything, it's not just a psp.

It's my psp.

Home brewed to Lois' heart.


And oh, firmware's 5.00 m33-6.



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Thanks again Redge.


I miss you Jeng :(

TOXIC

so tired!
toxic work!
whew!

I am ready Lord. If You will, please take me.

Sometimes, i sleep with a heavy heart and ask the Lord to take me before the sun shines. My spirit, bedridden for the most part, knew this isn't a mere escape from the harsh realities of tomorrow, but of absolute submission to His will.

I am ready Lord. If You will, please take me.

I am ready Lord. If You will, please take me.

I am ready Lord. If You will, please take me.

Like a song running through my brain like an audio on loop ... as i finally give the evening the slip and slid gently into good night.

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I am really blessed.

The more i thought (or prayed!) of not being able to wake up the next morning, the more God had wanted me to experience life's abundance as i bask in the limelight the next day.

And i woke up to a sweet voice that sprang life to me.

1am.

Like magical incantations, the words lavished a tempering effect in my mind and heart, like a soothing hum of the universe that wafted into my soul. A reminder for that single pill to globe trot my being. A reminder that time as vast as a desert had lost all demarcations i had set upon my sufferings. Like one huge shot of adrenaline in my veins, you can only imagine what bliss that moment brings.

In my days of diminished expectations and augmented consternation, is it the pill that keep me alive, or that moment of bliss?

It's a query that I'm still mulling over.

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KAPITAN SINO - BOB ONG (2009)

Nakaka excite naman to. San kayang sulok ng mundo pede ako makakuha ng kopya nito? Prang di ko kayang lumipas ang bente-kwatro oras na hindi napapasa-kamay ko ang isang kopya ng bagong libro ni Bob Ong. hihihi.

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Mula sa
http://visprintpub.blogspot.com/2009/05/kapitan-sino.html

Kapitan Sino - updated

THERE IS SOMETHING STRANGE IN YOUR NEIGHBORHOOD

Naunahan na naman ang mga pulis sa pagtugis sa mga holdaper ng isang jewelry shop. Bago noon, may iba na ring nakahuli sa isang carnaper; sumaklolo sa mga taong nasa itaas ng nasusunog na building; nagligtas sa sanggol na hinostage ng ama; tumulong para makatawid sa kalsada ang isang matanda; tumiklo sa mga miyembro ng Akyat-Bahay; sumagip sa mag-anak na tinangay ng tubig-baha; nag-landing nang maayos sa isang Boeing 747 na nasiraan ng engine; at nagpasabog sa isang higanteng robot. Pero sino ang taong ‘yon? Maililigtas nya ba sila Aling Baby? At ano nga ba talaga ang sabon ng mga artista?

KAPITAN SINO

Ang pinakabagong superhero noon.
Mas matibay pa sa orig.
Sa mas mahabang panahon.

KAPITAN SINO
ni Bob Ong
ISBN: 978-9710-54501-8
168 pages, paperback
Filipiniana, FICTION
Suggested Retail Price: P175.00

*NOW available in Pandayan Bookshop branches 05.13.09
Powerbooks: Trinoma, SM Megamall, Shangri-la, Glorietta & Greenbelt 05.15.09

**UPDATE as of 05.19.09
Now in selected National Bookstore branches
Best to call your branches to inquire of the book's availability.
Konting pasensiya lang po at mahina ang kalaban.
We're hoping to reach all branches nationwide before the month ends.

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mula sa:
http://sibobpo.multiply.com/journal/item/2/Pagkatapos_ng_Heneral_sunod_si_Kapitan

<.-.> Para sa kapakanan ng mga mambabasa mong naghintay sa bagong libro, pwede mo bang sabihin sa amin kung tungkol saan ang Paboritong Libro ni Hudas?
Kapitan Sino?
<.-.> Ah, oo, Kapitan Sino pala. Hehe. Ang ganda-ganda kasi ng Paboritong Libro ni Hudas. Yon ang paborito ko sa mga libro mo e. Hindi dahil sa nandoon ako, pero marami talagang nagsasabi na maganda yung Paboritong--
Ahem, um, ang Kapitan Sino ay tungkol kay Rogelio Manglicmot na nakilala ng mga tao bilang isang superhero sa katauhan ni Kapitan Sino.
<.-.> Ang haba ng pangalan! Para sakin mas gusto ko pa rin yung mga isinulat mong tauhan na five characters lang ang pangalan, yung simple lang, yung parang puro punctuation mark lang....
Ah, magugustuhan mo si Bok-bok, kasi may punctuation mark din ang pangalan nya!
<.-.> Sino naman yun?
Kaibigan ni Rogelio. Marami kang makikilala sa mundo ni Kapitan Sino.
<.-.> Pati si Tesla?
Si Tessa. Pero tama ka, dahil kinuha ko ang pangalan nya kay Nikola Tesla. Isa sa pinakamagaling, kundi man ang pinakamagaling, na electrical engineer sa kasaysayan, pero kaawa-awang naagawan ng maraming imbensyon.
<.-.> Hindi ba si Tessa ang nagpatagal ng ika-pitong libro?
Nagkakahiyaan kasi sila ni Rogelio. Nahirapan tuloy akong magsulat ng
kwentuhan nila. Yung iba ngang usapan, hindi na nila ipinasulat sa akin.
<.-.> Kaya ba isang buong araw kang nakinig ng mga senti?
Hehehe. Higit pa. Paulit-ulit-ulit akong nakinig ng mga love song, kasama na yung kanta ni Carole King, nang ilang linggo habang isinusulat ang tagpo nila. Pilit din akong nanood ng romantic movies pandagdag inspirasyon, at nagpaturo sa romance novel writer na dating miyembro ng Bobong Pinoy YahooGroup. Ewan kung pasado na ang gawa ko.
<.-.> Totoo bang lumang superhero si Kapitan Sino?
Hindi. Sya ang pinakabagong superhero...noon.
<.-.> 80's? Ibinalik mo ba ang oras sa Dekada Otsenta?
Oo, kaya mas akma ang kwento sa mga 27 years old pataas. Baka merong mga hindi gaanong maintindihang detalye ang mga mas batang mambabasa. Makakatulong kung meron silang mapagtatanungang matanda.
<.-.> Hmmm... mukhang interesante itong ika-walong libro.
Ika-pito. Pero tama ka ulit, dahil may mauuna pa dapat akong libro dito, kundi lang nakiusap si Mayor na paunahin ko na sila.
<.-.> May Mayor? Matatapatan ba nito ang dami ng celebrity sa Paboritong Libro ni Hudas?
Tinutukoy mo ba sila Donita Rose, Marvin Agustin, at Tootsie Guevarra na nasa ikatlong libro? Ikinalulungkot ko, pero mas hitik at nag-uumapaw sa mga celebrity ang Kapitan Sino.
<.-.> Pero hindi mo maitatangging ako ang pinakasikat mong celebrity dahil lumabas ako sa dalawang libro!
Tama. Lumabas ka sa itim at puting libro. Pero may iba pa kong tauhan na lumabas din ulit dito sa Kapitan Sino.
<.-.> Huh?! Hindi mo ko pinasasaya sa mga sagot mo, Bob Ong! At bakit ako magkaka-interes kay Kapitan Sino kung nung 80's pa ang adventure nya?
Kung itatanong mo yan pagkatapos magbasa, hindi mo naintindihan ang libro.
<.-.> Saan ba ko kukuha ng kopya?
Unti-unti na pong nagkakaroon ngayon ang mga paborito nyong eatery o sari-sari store. Kung wala pa, baka naubusan lang kayo. Subukan nyo ulit sa ibang araw.
<.-.> Magkano ba?
75 pesos lang po...kung panahon ni Cory Aquino! Pero dahil 2009 na, P175.00 po ang isa.
<.-.> Matagal-tagal bago nasundan ang Macarthur.
Ito ang pinakamatagal na agwat ng pagsusulat ko. Pero natapos din ang libro, salamat sa inspirasyon mula sa mga mambabasang tagapagpalakas ng loob at umaasang laging masusundan pa ang huling librong nabasa nila. Dahil sa simpleng hiling nila na laging masabihan kagad kung may bago na silang mababasa kaya ginagamit na naman kita ngayon para sa official announcement.
<.-.> Sanay na ko. Alam ko kailangan mo ng celebrity endorser para sa Kapitan Sino. Idagdag mo na lang sa talent fee ko yung t-shirt ng officialuse.net.
Punta ka sa Komikon sa UP sa Sabado, May 16.
http://visprintpub.blogspot.com/ Meron doong mga t-shirt ni Bob Ong. Mura lang dahil hindi ka na magbabayad ng shipping fee. Pagkakataon mo na!
<.-.> Aba, talagang double-purpose ang patalastas ah! May Swine Flu ka pa sa lagay na yan.
Sipon lang.
<.-.> Sa susunod mong libro wag kang gagawa ng announcement pag may sipon ka, kasi lalong kumo-corny.
Sige, susubukan ko. Salamat.

MISSIN' MAH KUYA MELVIN

missin' mah kuya melvin

where is he?
did he really turn his back on us?
clueless i really am.

The hardest enemy to fight is one’s self

Monday morning when the thought of fighting myself in the mybrute arena just popped through my mind.



I gained 1 experience point.

Most of the times, i would find myself arguing with the silly me in the stillness of the night. Deep in the recesses of my own soul, there's a battle inside that never got me into winning. Or have always got me into winning. Either way, they really inspire me to do better as i conquer my own self:

"Life is a paradox. The hardest things to grasp are the most commonsensical ones. The hardest things to see are the most obvious ones. The hardest enemy to fight is one’s self." - Conrado de Quiros

“The hardest battle you're ever going to fight is the battle to be just you.”
Leo F. Buscaglia

“To conquer oneself is a greater victory than to conquer thousands in a battle.” - Hindu Prince Gautama Siddharta

ENIGMA

Call me a fool, ruptured by reveries
Call me a stupid, bewildered by fantasies
Call me nothing, for none can explain
This unfathomable feeling, that drives me insane.

Try not to ask it, not to talk about it
Just feel its impact that is so exquisite
Beware lest you fall under its evil spell
It's just one heck of a hell!!!

It takes you out of your weary world
Brings out the best like a tender abode
It takes your breath away
And eases your pain and dismay.

Condemn no one, but you yourself instead
If this enigma still persists
Have I told you lately, it's highly epidemic
With 100,000 voltage.. it's ultra-electro magnetic!!!

Be careful as you struggle in this dilemma
Be tough as you are imprisoned by this enigma
But i guess you have to open your eyes first
Wink once, twice, thrice..
before your tears burst!!!

this poem of mine got published on:
Pilantik
Literary Folio of The Knight Publication
Colegio de San Juan de Letran-Calamba
Vol.5 February 1999

whew. tagal na. hahaha.

Love works in so many different ways that are so strange and wondrous.
It's magic.


And speaking of magic, lemme give yah some cool vids by Jmark in his pursuit for card tricks and magics.

You really rock hal!




COLOR CHANGE


OIL AND WATER


TRES AMIGOS

looking through my soul

looking through my soul

april 20, 2009, 4:08pm, sony dsc w130, photoshop cs filter: paint daubs

SALAGUBANG

6:58am
anong ginagawa ng salagubang na ito sa bump cap ko?

SNEAKERS

advance happy birthday to me!

hahahaha.
cute di ba?
babaw ng kaligayahan.
hehehe.

hal jmgdmtpg.Dmtwm

I was mentally enfeebled and reduced to infantilism having woke up in the middle of the wee hours. The easiest thing for me to grope in hours like this is my mobile phone that connects me entirely to the world (yeah, you mean the world to me :D) I reached for the mobile phone just beside my hair that is scrunched up in a knot, and attempted to ward off the darkness by stroking a single key. The light emanating from the mobile phone slowly sprang life, but the ravages of the night's lassitude had caught me off-guard against my sanity.




12:50am. Waging for my consciousness, i unconsciously pressed the keypad and produced this message:

hal jmgdmtpg.Dmtwm

I went the whole hog by adding a recipient (E pluribus unum! My finger has a life of its own i guess), and hitting the left green key.

Message sent.

I was able to get hold of my deed and had the capacity for introspection when i spoke to the E pluribus unum who had received my message an hour ago. He was chuckling at the deed while pronouncing my seemingly alien message and had asked me if i am still on my own self. Silly me.

Most of the times, i create a space, refuge and sanctuary where i let my sanity run wild, dancing on a night like this as my sanity takes on an alien face. More often, it is in these insane moments that i am able to give myself an infinite comfort as i drove myself home to the love that swirled around and moved me more powerfully than any scent of roses.

FLY ME TO THE OKRA

may 10, 2009

at iba pang mga bulaklak sa hardin

1am

thought i was dead.

phone rang.
unknown number.

1am.
medicines.

life.
love.

back to sleep.

BACK FROM THE MOON

I haven't posted for quite some time and as always, my attention has been diverted into some serious and/or silly things to which i believe i am capable of thinking and doing. (big evil grin)

I've been from the moon. (big evil grin)

Normally home to the bedlam that i always am, i took some time off to feel a dart of triumph in the muttering retreats of my restless nights, out from the blaring heat and honk and pushiness of everyday ragged lives. To simply know no other state than life, i submitted myself absolutely to the will of heaven and take up arms for the cause of my existence. Yes, it was yesterday's darkness indeed that made the light unusually bright as my heart starts to beat in panic, but then, who else will spring life to me as i blare out my attempted escape from stupidity?

My world had wound down and i breath a sigh of relief. I grope for some thoughts in my soul. This is how i rage against the dying of my light.. a progressive dementia of the stupid things that are taking my life in their most clandestine manners. Again, a strong conviction that i should never let my affliction get in the way of my living and stop harping on the folly of death.

I'M HERE FOR YOU

taken at tea house no.2 at orchard golf and country club / april 24, 2009

SINGLE AND AVAILABLE

taken at tea house no.2 at orchard golf and country club / april 24, 2009

MAKABAYAN BUG

Hahahaha.

Col. WOLF got me here. His very own version of peeking bug from my set of pics:

col. WOLF's makabayan bug

JOKE TIME: THE BOSS

One day, a guy calls up his Boss at home, but gets the bosses' wife
instead.
She said, I'm sorry, but he died last week.

The next day, the man calls up again and asks for his boss.
She said, I told you, he died last week.

The third day, the guy calls up again and asks for his boss.
The wife was mad and shouted, Don't you understand? I already told
you twice!MY HUSBAND, YOUR BOSS, DIED LAST WEEK! Why do you keep on
calling?

The guy laughed and said, Because I just love hearing it!

www.bosanchez.ph

HOT AND SPICY 041209

After 4 hours of figuring out how the hell our router couldn't possibly get set on our network, my world had wound down and had breathed a sigh of relief. I took revenge under the blaring heat of the sky's mightiest entity, and submitted myself to an array of hues in the form of chlorophyll-containing elements with floral bonuses home inside the perimeter of our abode.





The chilis are indeed one heck of a subject when it comes to photography. I love the fiery red color in contrast to its rich green leaves.





ANTS.











They bite.

ang sakit.

TRANSIENT

Photos taken using my SOny Cybershot DSC-W130

LIVE LIKE IT'S HEAVEN ON EARTH

I love my new ziggy at tropaks.



i made it

*blush*

BACK FROM THE MOON

Ang hirap pala bumalik galing sa matagal na kawalan.

Hindi ko alam kung san ko sisimulan.

EXPUNCTION

The weight and restrictions of love has dawned into me last night upon seeing my comments deleted in a profile. I was as if being put to the unlisted category, isolated from the eyes of his connections. I looked at myself with the unfamiliarity or the strange familiarity of half-forgotten perceptions and sensations. But in as much as i want to drag my sorrow into every breath that i am taking, i couldn't allow myself to get sucked into the monotony of depressing thoughts.

I fully understood why this has to happen. There can be strength in solitude. There are good points. There can be contentment in finding myself away from those prying eyes. I couldn't stand indicted before such a sight, and feel even more remorseful.

The rain poured harder and the temperature continued to drop. I began to grope for the blanket that i have strewn earlier in the bed, then wrapped myself into it. I unhurriedly wiped the tears that have rolled down my cheeks, then told myself, "Tomorrow, the rain will stop and the sun will shine even brighter."

I allowed all my sorrows to glide listlessly off my shoulders as i slid gently to dreamland.

All i Really Need to Know I Learned in Kindergarten

Last week i was asked to speak in front of the graduating Kindergarten Students of Pulo Elementary School. It was as if slipping backward in time recalling how my childhood days have been spent in school. Funny as it may seem, but i didn't go to kindergarten during those days. I was six when i was enrolled straight to Grade 1 in Buntog, a barangay nestling at the foot of the Palace in the Sky, where you can reach through its long travel of rough roads passing through the vast sugarcane plantation (then owned by Yulo Clans to which was latter sold to Ayala clans) far away from the hustle and bustle of the urban life. When my dad took his vacation from overseas work, he decided to transfer me to Pulo Elementary School in my third grade so my sisters could look after me as well.

And so this guest speaker thing has gotten so into me. I have attended and even facilitated seminars for student leaders, assisted children's parties, wrote speeches for the presidents and chairmen, but to speak in front of these kindergarten students... i was deliberately thinking how in the world would i be able to get their attention and be able to infuse some sparks of wisdom in their young minds.

There's this credo that i truly love from Robert Fulghum's book "All i Really Need to Know I Learned in Kindergarten"

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All I really need to know about how to live and how to be I learned in kindergarten. Wisdom was not at the top of the graduate-school mountain, but there in the sandpile at Sunday School. These are the things I learned:

Share everything.
Play fair.
Don’t hit people.
Put things back where you found them.
Clean up your own mess.
Don’t take things that aren’t yours.
Say sorry when you hurt somebody.
Wash your hands before you eat.
….Warm cookies and cold milk are good for you.
Live a balanced life …..
When you go out into the world, watch out for traffic, hold hands, and stick together.
Be aware of wonder. ….
And then remember the Dick-and-Jane books and the first word you learned – the biggest word of all - LOOK.

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It may seem so basic, and i decided to dig into this in front of these Kindergarten Students. A simple run-down of the things that were taught to them in their early studies, a simple reminder of the basic virtues that they have to continue in order to be successful. Fundamentals explained in a language a small child would remember and understand. And my talk went on for no less than five minutes.



Isn't it amazing how what we have learned in our early days comes up again and again as we live our complex lives? Did we really understand and practice what we were taught in our first year of school?