It's been days of hiatus.
I am tempted to say auspicious things in lieu of negative vibes, but then, my progressive dementia for brighter ones have taken the better of me: a flimsy excuse to continuously drag myself in the ruts of my life. Enough to contemplate joining the lemmings, hurling myself off into the abyss of dismal ending.
Sadness continues to hover above me like a shadow. I chose it, i chose sadness. It's not easy finding a clever answer to a question as to why i would always choose sadness over happiness. Frankly, i do not know. Dashed into pieces, i am quite unsure how to gather the pieces of myself back.